Re: from Debra V.- I Just do what I have to do-narcotics

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I got my first strong pain meds sometime in 2001 or 2002 and I have

always watched how many I take. I found out pretty quickly that if I

took a whole percocet, I would be what I have to call stoned, and I

try never to run out, which is one reason I must remember to ask for

a new scrip when I see my doctor in 2 weeks. But I also have the

valium that I can take if the pain is not really severe or if I am

having trouble getting to sleep. But since I have been taking

antidepressants for 20 years now and know I will be for the rest of

my life, they are just part of who I am. And Debra, I can really

understand that need to have something to get through you time at

work! I remember at my last job, we had this woman in our group that

had motrin in prescription strength and, according to her, it was ok

if I need one, she could ALWAYS GET MORE!! we never did determine

who wrote her scripts but she did have the big prescription bottles

and always a supply!

>

> > It is just that I feel a little bit of fear.... like what if

> > something happens and I cannot get them anymore????? ?? What the

> > hell??? Will I just die and have horrible pain? It is more the

> > thought of some crisis for example, if my doctor goes out of

> > practice or something and some damn moron takes my meds from me

and

> > decides to change everything up? Or what if he just tells me I am

> > an idiot and a drug addict and dismisses me like alot of people

> > here experience? And to think that I have to depend on these

> > chemicals to stay out of pain, out of depression, control my

> > anxiey, control my b/p..... It is a little scary to me. However,

I

> > have no choice. I have the right meds now to help me really.

> > But..... I sure can't prescribe them for myself. You see? Yes, in

> > that sense I am in a prison of pills because I cannot survive a

> > halfway normal life and work

>

> I understand this. It's one reason why I didn't stay on Cymbalta.

> The insurance company had so many hoops to jump through and I ran

> out. There are some meds, like Cymbalta, Lyrica, certain

> antidepressants, that you simply can't run out of.

>

> It's another reason why I hope that I will never have to use

> narcotics for fibromyalgia pain. I've seen on this group what

people

> go through. That's another kind of med that you just can't stop

> cold, at least without really unpleasant withdrawal. I have days of

> really severe pain - recently a whole week of this kind of fibro

> pain, but I made it through without taking any of my three

remaining

> hydrocodone, though at times I just didn't know what I was going to

> do, and the pain went on so long that I didn't think it was ever

> going to end. Pretty much, it's the knowledge that the pain will

lift

> in a few days that gets me through the bad days.

>

> I follow up with my docs carefully, and every one - my insurance

PCP,

> my thinks-outside- the-box doc, my GI guy, and my meds shrink -

know

> everything I'm taking down to the last acidopholous capsule. I've

> been fortunate to maintain long term relationships with these docs.

> If they leave or stop practicing, there will be records of my

visits,

> and records of my prescription, and histories going back years.

>

> I feel for the people who are taking narcotics. I just don't want

to

> go there if I can help it.

>

> Z

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