Good Thing You Can't See How Crazy I Feel

[Guest guest]

So- if your teenage kid had a bad day at school and was pissed off because they

got a

poor grade from a teacher they liked, then at lunch no-one would let them sit

at any table

so they ate the crummy lunch standing up in the hallway (secretly wishing they

hadn't

rudely rejected the bag lunch you offered up at 6.30 am)- now it's 4pm and that

special

teen-someone hasn't called, texted or e-mailed and your kid chugs 3 cans of Red

Bull and

then starts pacing up and down yelling at everyone and alternately sulking in a

big cushy

chair scrawling offensive statements and dirty words all over page after page of

a school

notebook.

Add 30+ years, change a few of the events and behaviors then : Hell-o welcome to

my

evening. I am that unruley misunderstood brat.

I wonder. What if my Drs child had cystic fibrosis but was improperly diagnosed

with

asthmatic bronchitis-- who would be saying diagnosis is less important than

symptoms

and the symptoms are psychological?

Be REALLY glad you are not in my living room now.

My partner has gone to bed, complaining that my anger is out of control and my

behavior

is manic. She offered to take me to the ER to be admitted to a psych hospital.

I'm not

100% sure but I think she was serious.

Hopefully I will drop from exhaustion at some point tonight and this particular

horror will

be over. It will be another day and if need be I will hit up the shrink

forsomething to shut

me up. They have no problem handing out those pills- it's the pills that treat

physical pain

that seem to be very very unfashionable these days. Oh piss on the rug!!!!

Cassandra