Done, Well Done, Overcooked Even

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Hi all,

For those who are new since I have been away Welcome. I am Marti and have

been having chemo treatments that have worn me out, (for bone cancer), I live

alone and have three grown children and a cousin who have been helping me

through this ordeal. I just got home from spending a week with my son.

I live in CT. My daughter Andi is 34, lives in CT too, is married to Joe and

has three boys, Jack 6, Brady 3 and Aidan who just turned 1 last week. My

daughter (I raised her, but she is not really related to me, couldn't adopt her

because her father who abandoned her wouldn't let me) Liz is 34, lives in New

York, is married to and has two boys Riley almost 6 and Zachary 2.

(Zachary, by the way for those who are praying for him, has been found to have a

very serious infection in his hip and that is why he can't walk, it will require

massive surgery and don't know the prognosis yet). My son is almost 31,

lives in Boston and has a special someone in his life now and I hope the

relationship will move forward, but we will have to wait and see.

I have Fibromyalgia, duh, Sarcoidosis that affects my lungs and my eyes the

worst, Hypothyroidism, AADD, Sleep Apnea, Narcolepsy, Acid Reflux Disease, IBS,

Asthma and Allergies, and probably something else I can't remember. Some of

these things are treated and some are not. I am one who takes pain medication.

Before the bone cancer, I was taking 5mg of hydrocodone 3X day, or all at once

depending on the day. I've been taking some stronger drugs for the bone pain,

but it has lessened now and so am going back to the hydrocodone. I am also

taking drugs for Depression and Anxiety.

I also have severe money problems and my home is in foreclosure. I am trying

to stop it, but will have to move anyway as I can't work, don't collect SSD, and

will lose my severance pay in February 2009 and will be down to my retirement of

11,000/year. My son has offerred to move to a bigger place so I can move in

with him, but I hate to burden him that way. My daughter Andi is willing to

help me move, but offerrs no help otherwise. She has issues! Liz is out of the

picture for now, has enough on her plate. I'm hoping to find some way to stay

around here, with assistance, so I won't leave my grandchildren. They are the

light in my life right now.

Well that's my life story for now. I don't know how much I will be on line

while I am working on all of these things and trying to recover some strength.

At least I'm done with Chemo. Don't know the prognosis yet, but think it will

at least be better than it was.

To all my friends in the group, thank you for all of your prayers and warm

thoughts. I appreciate them all. Thanks for the phone calls and the cards,

both through e-mail and snail mail. I am overwhelmed at your caring so much

about me. I don't get that much - even from my family. Thank you so much for

hanging in there with me and waiting for me to get back. I hope to join in as

much as I can for now and hopefully can start to participate more as time goes

on, unless I lose my Internet connection. I will warn you if that is about to

happen. Shouldn't be for several months anyway.

It's good to be home again and not hooked up to anything.

Love to all,

Marti

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