I can't take this pain anymore....

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I have been in horrible pain for the past 2 days and my family is not

supportive at all. I guess I shouldn't say my whole family, mainly

my husband. I have had to pick my son up from work the past 2 days

when my husband knows I am in severe pain and he also knew what time

my son got off of work. I can't even push the break pedal in my car

without it sending pain all the way up my leg. I also have a new

pain that just started today. It starts at the top of my spine in

the base of my head and shoots all the way down my spine to my tail

bone, this about sends me through the roof. I have been crying for

the past 2 days. I laid in bed all day yesterday, Saturday, and

today I sat on the couch on a heating pad and nothing seems to help.

No matter what I take whether it be all natural or OTC. I don't have

insurance anymore so seeing a doc about this is totally out of the

question. I just can't take this pain anymore.

My husband and kids were outside today playing catch with a football

and baseball and I sat in the house on the couch wanting to be out

there but I couldn't. I hate that, I feel like a horrible mother

because I can't do things with my kids anymore. I just want to be

normal again, I don't want this pain anymore. I pray over and over

again for the pain to stop but it seems like the more I pray the

worse the pain gets.

It seems like the only thing that takes the pain away is drinking

alcohol and I am a recovering alcoholic and I don't want to become

and alcoholic again.

It hurts all over, I can't even turn my head without it hurting, I

can't walk through my house without being in severe pain, I just

can't do anything anymore and I HATE it.

I love you all so much and I'm glad that I finally found some people

that understand and will help.

Thank you for reading my vent,