Depressed- Angry

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Hi all,

I am feeling depressed- Dull-Blagh-Tired-Resentful.

Don't recal if I posted this awhile back. I " Googled " - " Conditions that mimick

the

symptoms of Fibrolyamgia " , I think that was My exact wording. I got an article

that listed

20 medical conditions that could be mistaken for fibro. My most recent so-called

diagnosis (Chronic Pain Syndrome) was not listed. So I went to see my PCP, this

was over a

week ago, and showed her this list. Immediately she ws able to rule out about

two thirds

of it. That left a handfull she was trying to figure out how to diagnose or

exclude. The two

scariest- I have sence for peoples body language-where " Polymiotis-something "

and

Multiple Sclerosis. She said the symptoms realy do overlap alot for FMS and MS

and that

right that minute she couldnt remember the current methods of diagnosing MS, but

she

would look up both that and the Polymiotis-whatsit. ( At least she was taking

the whole

thing seriously, but I was still annoyed about the delay- She scheduled my next

appointment with her for a full month away with nothing concrete as to what she

was

going to do then.) Last I remember, for MS they do an MRI to look for brain

lesions and

do EMG for nerve-muscle conductivity. It's another two weeks before I even get

my

bloodwork done again. So this whole diagnostic thing is dragging out. The doc

in

Baltimore was so sure I had fibro and told me not to worry. She was realy

confident that

my new doc here in Bangor would be able to sraighten up my diagnosis- here I am

almost

a year later, still living with " fibro's brattylittle sister. "

I agreed to see the Pain Psychologist because everyone has been hasseling me to

go talk

to this wonderful new head doctor, (except Honey, who is very ill right now.) I

will describe

the pain to him exactly as we have all discussed on these pages- worst fluX2,

beaten with

a board, sleep deprived 5days, kicked in the groin. Then maybe I'l offer to

demonstrate for

him and pull a 5 inch stick out of my purse and tell him to put it where it will

do him the

most good. Okay so you can see I am not a submisive or compliant patient and

I'm not

good at faking it.

Yeah, feeling a ltitle hostile and agrressive today, if we want to get

decriptive. I would

simply say- ANGRY.. TIRED..DEPRESSED.

Cassandra