Re: About my Fibro history

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I'm glad you shared your story with us, Faithy.

I was recently diagnosed with PTSD...that is, in part, why I haven't been

responding to the list for some time. I took some time off work to deal

with treatment for this condition. I was also told that many fibro patients

have a history of trauma. I also grew up in a physically and emotionally

abusive home. I thought I had dealt with most of it, but I always knew that

the hyper-vigilance I experienced had to do with constantly being 'on guard'

and trying to keep everything just right so that my father wouldn't have a

reason to get mad...which of course never worked. It is strange that after

all of these years, I'm finally in a place where I want to deal with it and

get these issues out in the open. I'm hoping that by talking about it, I

will find a way to let go of the pain.

As for the fibro, I haven't found this treatment alleviates any pain right

now. But I also started going to a women's athletic club. I'm on my way

there soon, but I wanted to try to catch up on a few of the hundreds of

messages that I have been avoiding for so long.

I appreciate hearing from so many. It is good to know I am not alone in

this battle.

Vicki

MN

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> About my Fibro history

>

> I was raised as an abused child. Very physically and emotionally abused

> child. My step father would throw me down stair, drop me out of a truck

> door

> and broke my leg. swung me around by my legs and I hit my head on the

> corner of a door frame. He would incessantly BEAT me with leather belt,

> and

> the back of his huge logger sized hand would find its way to my poor

> little

> head more then a few times while growing up.

>

> I could do NOTHING right as a child and would be beaten just for looking

> at

> my Step Father wrongly. To really go into great depth of my childhood and

> all the abuse I went through, would bring about a second time in my life

> where I would be in the depths of sorrow and heart felt pain which I have

> worked diligently to come to terms with. Just KNOW I was a very very

> abused

> child and could have been a POSTER CHILD for abused children.

>

> When I was dx'd with FM, I already had Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome,

> Depression, and at one time dx'd with BI POLAR/Manic depression..but since

> that time, found out it was a misdiagnose..I have just general depression

> from SADD and pain.. Degenerative Disc Disease, IBS, CFIDS, Hiatel hernia,

> and diverticulitis. I am NOT on any meds for the Fibro. Have heard of a

> drug

> called LYRICA? Does anyone here take it or are you familiar with it.

> My doctors gave me STEROIDS i.e. prednisone for a long long time, before I

> was permanently dx'd with Fibro about a year ago.

> I have heard that LYRICA makes a person gain weight also. I gained weight

> big time on Steroids...

> I could go in to great detail about my self and what has gone wrong with

> me.

> .but I will dwell on listening to others ..and try to not to allow the

> pain

> to get me down..as I glean support and love from all of you to guide my

> dailey life.

>

> God Bless you all

> Faithy

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> I added this quote to my email...I believe I got it here...thanks,

> whomever

> sent it out

>

> " If you are alone, I'll be your shadow.

> If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder.

> If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile.

> But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me. "

> –Unknown

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