How I woke UP today. Feeling like you are dying

April 28, 2008

Ok.. just when you think you could not feel worse, you have a day like this one

that is by far the worst in months or a year. The rapid weather changes here

have about killed me I guess. You know, the hot to cold all of the sudden.

I woke up and got out of bed because being in bed was actually hurting me worse.

Just the prssure of a mattress was causing pain and of course the poor quality

of sleep I guess. I felt like someone had beaten me all over and I was stiff

and my righ shoulder and my whole back felt like it had been attached to 50 lb

weights all night. The exhaustion is beyond belief. I feel like I have a

" virus " as others would think if they felt this way. No... it is the fibro

beast himself who has come to visit stronger than usual. I do not know what the

hell I would do if this was another work day. Working is killing me. I cannot

get disability because I cannot even think of applying while still working. Yet,

if I don't work, we will be homeless and hungry while waiting for disability and

all its red tape.

I feel today like I am literally dying. I think to myself sometimes what dying

would feel like, and I believe it feels alot like this.

Sorry for the long post...

love,

Debra V. ( I guess I will go to bed now again)... can't hardly sit in this

chair).

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