Re: Re: - and the group. pills, pills,and pills.. I need them

[Guest guest]

> It is just that I feel a little bit of fear.... like what if

> something happens and I cannot get them anymore??????? What the

> hell??? Will I just die and have horrible pain? It is more the

> thought of some crisis for example, if my doctor goes out of

> practice or something and some damn moron takes my meds from me and

> decides to change everything up? Or what if he just tells me I am

> an idiot and a drug addict and dismisses me like alot of people

> here experience? And to think that I have to depend on these

> chemicals to stay out of pain, out of depression, control my

> anxiey, control my b/p..... It is a little scary to me. However, I

> have no choice. I have the right meds now to help me really.

> But..... I sure can't prescribe them for myself. You see? Yes, in

> that sense I am in a prison of pills because I cannot survive a

> halfway normal life and work

I understand this. It's one reason why I didn't stay on Cymbalta.

The insurance company had so many hoops to jump through and I ran

out. There are some meds, like Cymbalta, Lyrica, certain

antidepressants, that you simply can't run out of.

It's another reason why I hope that I will never have to use

narcotics for fibromyalgia pain. I've seen on this group what people

go through. That's another kind of med that you just can't stop

cold, at least without really unpleasant withdrawal. I have days of

really severe pain - recently a whole week of this kind of fibro

pain, but I made it through without taking any of my three remaining

hydrocodone, though at times I just didn't know what I was going to

do, and the pain went on so long that I didn't think it was ever

going to end. Pretty much, it's the knowledge that the pain will lift

in a few days that gets me through the bad days.

I follow up with my docs carefully, and every one - my insurance PCP,

my thinks-outside-the-box doc, my GI guy, and my meds shrink - know

everything I'm taking down to the last acidopholous capsule. I've

been fortunate to maintain long term relationships with these docs.

If they leave or stop practicing, there will be records of my visits,

and records of my prescription, and histories going back years.

I feel for the people who are taking narcotics. I just don't want to

go there if I can help it.

Z