I need strength today!

[Guest guest]

First let me apologize for not postion very much. I do read the posts but can't

even help myself let alone anyone else.

I don't know how much more I can take! This pain is unreal. My pain meds do

little if anything ( but now my step son 24y/o is living with us and found he is

stealing what pain meds I do have). My house is so simple, there is nothing I

have with a lock and key. My husband has tried to kick him out but he (s/s)

breaks out in big puppy dog tears, and his dad gives in.

I have been in so much pain I can NOT take much more. I had to quit my job, now

NO ins. and dh is working 12 hour days just to try to get cought up on bills and

everyday living. I am in the process of SSD, been turned down 1st try, will be

getting a call from a lawyer tomorrow (Monday) he is a retired SSD Judge.

Anyway back to my RIGHT NOW problems. My entire insides feel like they are going

to explode at any time, my chest hurts so bad for the first few hours after

getting up, about 3 to 4 hours, I have to strugle with every breath. If I have

to cough the torture is just to much. I have a doctor but as all those quack

jobs go, he is really doing nothing for me. Just giving me about 10 min of his

precious time, prescriptions I can't afford (Lyrica, cymbulta, celebrex, etc.)

can't spell this morning either. and a pat on the shoulder, have a good day Jack

A@@. Like I said before my dh is working all the time so I sit here alone trying

to strugle to do the most simple things like get a cup of coffee. Somedays like

today I just want to give up, is it all worth the pain of not even being able to

take a breath without crying out in pain?

Sorry to rant, but I am having a really bad time today! To be honest I can't

remember a day in the last 2 years that have been pain free.

Thanks for reading.

aka: marieinaz