Inspirations...(not the store lol)

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I was wondering, how many of us have a creative hobby that keeps our

mind occupied, keeps us busy at times?

I have always been a want-to-be writer. Lol. I say want to be, because

I have wanted to write something really wonderful, and have always had

a terror of anyone reading what I write. I am naturally articulate,

although as my fibro has progressed I definitely have my good days and

bad days.. Woot for fibro-fogs.. at any rate. About six months ago, an

idea for a book came to me and has been forming since , and I just

have this.. urge, to finish it, write it.. And the fear of people

reading it is still present but the dominating presence just isn't

there. I want to write it, I know I can do a good job, and it would

be fulfilling a wonderful, lifelong dream to have it published..

For those wondering, it is a fantasy novel. I am an avid fantasy

reader and fan, its another avenue I use for escape lol, when I can

bear reading these days..

And as I have started piecing this book together, first in my head and

now slowly putting notes together, I find myself examining other

writers materials, from everywhere, seeing where they've gotten their

inspiration.. I've always had a feel for books and storylines and am

often able to predict how the story will fall out(drives my husband

nuts btw I always ruin the ending of movies and books I've never seen

or read hah)...

I think it would be wonderful. Perhaps its giving me drive, at the

moment.. Something I have said for many years I was going to do

" eventually " .. but could never find the guts to do, or the

inspiration, and then one day it just walked into my head for no

explicable reason and I just said.. you know what.. I'm going to do

it. I've written I don't even know how many stories, even novels, on

my computer of.. things i hated. I would delete them, during bad

periods when I was depressed. I now obviously wish I had kept them,

even if not to use but as learning tools. But nothing thats ever stuck

like this one. That I felt a driven need to finish. It's a nice

feeling, in a strange sort of way as it is not complete or even near

complete.

My random topic of the day.

One other shortly to come. Lol.