quality of life

[Guest guest]

To my dear friends,

I have boggled my mind on how to write this, but after thinking so hard, I

have come up with a conclusion, just write it in the truth of how I feel, so

here goes:

Since I have been dx in 1999 stage 4 pbc stage 2 aih, my thoughts have always

been on the quantity of life I will have and not the quality of my life. Well, I

have now come to know that my quality of life is of more importance, because

without a good quality of life my quantity of life will be shortened. I have

been dx with fibromyalgia, been in pain for years and the fatigue is at its

utmost, but not knowing why until recently.

I have been to my pcp, rheumy doctor, gastro doctor, and none of them will

listen to the pain I am in and are so afraid of giving me a rx that will work,

and some want to pass the buck on to one of the other doctors regarding pain

meds, due to them thinking that it is going to destroy my liver even more, well

guess what, I can honestly say I don't care. I am so tired of sitting around

crying because of the intense pain.

I have spoken to many of you about pain medication and know your feelings

regarding this, I know it is not great for the liver. I have been reading in the

digest about positive mental attitude and believe me I know the importance of

that, but, being in constant pain and fatigue can do nothing but lower that

positive attitude. In my opinion once you can get the pain under control the

positive attitude will rise up again, and maybe the fatigue will lessen, since

pain can take a lot out of you.

I have thought of this for years, the only way the doctors can truly

understand what you are going through is for them to have what you have, and go

through the pain and fatigue you are going through. So I guess I have to go

through many doctors until I have found the one who will listen to me, since I

am the only one who knows my body best. I also understand that doctors are

apprenhensive about narcotics because so many people abuse them, but, having a

person who has a legatimate reason to be on them, they need to seriously rethink

this.

I hope this all has made some sort of cense to you all. Thank you for always

being there even if we do not always agree on things.

Sincerely,

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