RE: guilt- illness- and Lyrica- called in sick Teri

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Thanks Teri. I am up today and woke up much the same I do every morning. (but

it will be better than yesterday). I woke up stiff and aching and hurting

everywhere. But, at least yesterday I rested so I expect that later today I

will feel better after my initial wake up time is done here.

I know what you mean about work. It just really upsets me that people don't

listen when we tell them of our very limited energy bank and how a day of

overdoing just won't be compensated by a " good nights sleep " like it does with

the normal person. Our bodies don't work that way. And when they say they are

tired... they have no idea what this kind of tired is. I know because 10 years

ago I could sleep at night and wake up the next day and be ok...(before fibro

grabbed me). So I know their kind of " tired " . It use to work for me that way

too. But now, it is unrelentless rebellion from our bodies for days after we

overdo. And " overdoing " is not what it is to them.

I was thinking yesterday how to describe this. Tell them to go to a gym and

work out for an hour or so after they are not use to it. They will hurt all

over and be exhausted. Now... tell them to go back to the gym the same day and

do the same workout all over again. Well, that would be unimaginable to a

normal person even. But our bodies feel like we have pushed it to the limit and

gone back for more and more. That is the kind of pain and fatigue we have

without doing anything to cause it really.

love and hugs,

Debra V.

Teri Wallner terenia58@...> wrote:

Debra,

I feel for you honey - and NO, you should not feel guilty. Take care of

yourself today and get some rest. Let everything else go except making sure

you are okay.

I'm sure not only the physical part of the whole day working, but the

emotional stress of the dying patient added to your pain.

I know what you mean about overdoing it and the NORMAL term. I work from

home doing transcription and normally only work about 25 hours a week. For

some reason my employer must think I'm on full time status and last week I

worked 42 hours. As I said to my doctor on the phone yesterday - that may

not sound like much to the normal person, but I'm not normal and those kinds

of hours just about killed me. They started me off this week working a lot

of hours too. Fortunately so far this morning, I'm only scheduled for my 5

hour shift. If they send me additional work, I may have to tell them I am

not able to accept the extra work at the moment - I'm one of those stupid

people that can't seem to say no, so they think I'm the " go to " person for

extra work. I am taking off on Friday and am not accepting weekend work

because I need the rest after my body has rebelled big time. I had to talk

to the doc about getting something extra for the pain besides my norm. She

was understanding and did prescribe something else for me on top of my

regular meds - I thank God for that woman.

Let us know how it goes with the Lyrica.

Teri (central Wisconsin)

guilt- illness- and Lyrica- called in sick

Yep, here I am. Overdid it yesterday to the max. I had to call in sick. Do I

feel guilty? Yes. Should I? NO. The crap has hit me all over from working a

10 hour shift yesterday, running all over the nursing home non stop and to

boot I had to get up yesterday morning at 630 for my doctor appt. Strange

thing, I felt good yesterday through all of it until about 6 in the evening

when my body rebelled. I had to stay until midnight because I had a dying

patient whom I loved dearly and her family was in alot of grief.

Of course the nurse I consider to be my best friend said " well, just sleep

in tomorrow " . THEY NEVER GET IT. The NORMAL person can do that and feel

refreshed. Fibro won't let that happen. You either wake up in pain and can't

go back to sleep or even if I did sleep 9 or 10 hours, my body would still

be screaming.

I did take my first dose of Lyrica about 5 minutes ago. I guess I will give

it a try. Hell, I would drink muddy water if I thought it would help. So, we

will see if I get drunk from it or what. At this point, I don't give a $hit.

To the only ones that understand,

love and hugs,

Debra V.