Re: - and the group. pills, pills,and pills.. I need them

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, I am greatful I have medication that helps me to function with this

illness.  It is just that I feel a little bit of fear.... like what if something

happens and I cannot get them anymore???????  What the hell??? Will I just die

and have horrible pain?  It is more the thought of some crisis for example, if

my doctor goes out of practice or something and some damn moron takes my meds

from me and decides to change everything up?  Or what if he just tells me I am

an idiot and a drug addict and dismisses me like alot of people here

experience?    And to think that I have to depend on these chemicals to stay out

of pain, out of depression, control my anxiey, control my b/p..... It is a

little scary to me.  However, I have no choice.  I have the right meds now to

help me really.  But..... I sure can't prescribe them for myself.  You see? 

Yes, in that sense I am in a prison of pills because I cannot  survive a halfway

normal life and work

to support my kids without them. 

I certainly believe in medicine or I would not be in the profession I am in. 

But when I think that 5 or 6 years ago I took one prescription pill and that was

an antidepressant, then it is a little unsettling that I require so many

medications now.

hugs,

Debra V.

> Just venting. Anyone else feel like they are in a prison of pills????

I don't feel like I'm in a prison. The pills I take, and there are

many of them, either enable me to function, or are a result of my

deliberately creating malabsorption in my GI tract in order to free

myself from super morbid obesity.

Without the antidepressant, I would suffer. Without the Celebrex, as

I discovered over the past month trying to switch to generic

Voltaren, I have swelling, pain, and stiffness of arthritis in my

joints, and the pain saps my will to live and my desire to be active

and interested in things. The thyroid supplement gets my nose out of

the carpet. The Aciphex keeps me from dying a horrible death from

esophogeal cancer.

I have traded off taking diabetes medicine and blood pressure

medicine or diuretics for taking supplements since my weight loss

surgery. I must say, without the diabetes medicine, I no longer have

the horrendous dry mouth problems and I enjoy actually having spit.

I take about 28 pills per day. I do them up in pill containers once

a month. Two or three times a day I swallow some.

Maybe it's because I've taken so many pills for so many years, but

nope, I don't feel like I'm in a prison at all. When my grandmother

was my age, she had pain just as bad, but there were no knee

replacements, and no effective blood pressure, Type II diabetes, or

arthritis medications. I feel extraordinarily blessed.

Z