Re: I need you all........basketcase mother/Kelley

[Guest guest]

Kelley

I guess my concern is that IF I remove myself ie not babysit, she will have

less money for the bills and she tells me she IS struggling to meet her

obligations and I have to admit she is working hard and long, but waitressing

is

not going to give her enough to pay that mortgage. The boys, being inter

racial, I feel need every advantage possible. They already have strikes

against

them in that their biological father is another loser with a capital L---in

and out of jail, drug user, but not as bad as Will, never keeps a jpb and he

just comes from that whole " ghetto mentality " , where the mother carries the

family while the father runs around procreating and doing nothing worthwhile.

We don't even want them knowing he is their father. Then they have K as

their mother---screaming, never discipling correctly, giving them " things " but

not values " . What they have become so far is from me and my son. I need to be

able to distance myself without abandoing them. ANd even if she were

normal----I just hate babysitting at her house for the babies. I would do it

for

the boys because I could bring them here and go about MY business and get

things done here for me and wouldn't feel

so pressured all the time. But I have no cribs here and no intention of

getting any.

I want out but I don't think I would ever be able to live with myself if I

walked out on theose boys. I have still not really bonded with Emerson and

probably never will and certainly not with the baby----I can't relate to

infants in normal situations. The only infants I liked were my two and that

was

bad judgement where K was concerned!!

Jean