Guest guest Posted April 27, 2008 Report Share Posted April 27, 2008 You are so right about being able to take less if you don't have to go to work. When I was working I took Vicoden and like you, no one ever knew because I didn't get high. In fact, it revved me up. When that stopped working, they doctor put me on the fentanyl patch. It nearly killed me, but I was able to work. Once I stopped working, I stayed on the patch, until I finally ended up in the hospital. Right now, I'm afraid to take narcotics. They screw with my system so much and in the end I feel worse because it is so hard to come off them. I'm trying alternative options like pool exercises, hot baths, and anything else that anyone recommends. Tigger (Ruth) in Rhode Island _____ From: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group [mailto:Fibromyalgia_Support_Group ] On Behalf Of debra van ness Sent: Sunday, April 27, 2008 12:29 AM To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group Subject: from Debra V.- I Just do what I have to do-narcotics I completely understand what you mean honey. I did not want to have to take this crap either. It just came to a point really fast that the pain and exhaustion were so unrelentless that I had to do something in order to keep on working. I believe I could cut back on pain meds quite a bit if I did not have to still go to work. Now that said, I always have pills left when I go to the doc for my monthly appt. I am never out. So I actually don't always take as much as I am allowed to. In addition to the agravation of taking so MANY pills, it is the fact that I take several that are prescription. I guess I would not mind as much if they were all over the counter meds. I would not feel nearly as insecure about it. But I have to do what I have to do for now because quitting work is NOT an option unfortunately. I try sometimes to make it through a shift without taking pain meds at work. Everytime, it seems like about 4 or 5 hours into my shift or sooner that I am in so damn much pain and exhaustion I don't know how I can still put one foot in front of the other. But girl, I can't blame you for not wanting to take narcotics. It is not that I have horrible side effects or that they impair me at all.... because they don't..... no one would even know I just took hydrocodone at work because I never get " high " or " wasted " on them. But the most fearful part is probably that I have to depend on the mercy of another human being to prescribe them for me. There are just too many " what ifs " involved. And yes, if I cold turkey this stuff I WILL have withdrawals that would not be fun. Not because I am a drug addict who takes them for jollies, but because my body is dependent on them. Well, you understand what I mean. Thanks for the post. love and hugs, Debra V. > It is just that I feel a little bit of fear.... like what if > something happens and I cannot get them anymore????? ?? What the > hell??? Will I just die and have horrible pain? It is more the > thought of some crisis for example, if my doctor goes out of > practice or something and some damn moron takes my meds from me and > decides to change everything up? Or what if he just tells me I am > an idiot and a drug addict and dismisses me like alot of people > here experience? And to think that I have to depend on these > chemicals to stay out of pain, out of depression, control my > anxiey, control my b/p..... It is a little scary to me. However, I > have no choice. I have the right meds now to help me really. > But..... I sure can't prescribe them for myself. You see? Yes, in > that sense I am in a prison of pills because I cannot survive a > halfway normal life and work I understand this. It's one reason why I didn't stay on Cymbalta. The insurance company had so many hoops to jump through and I ran out. There are some meds, like Cymbalta, Lyrica, certain antidepressants, that you simply can't run out of. It's another reason why I hope that I will never have to use narcotics for fibromyalgia pain. I've seen on this group what people go through. That's another kind of med that you just can't stop cold, at least without really unpleasant withdrawal. I have days of really severe pain - recently a whole week of this kind of fibro pain, but I made it through without taking any of my three remaining hydrocodone, though at times I just didn't know what I was going to do, and the pain went on so long that I didn't think it was ever going to end. Pretty much, it's the knowledge that the pain will lift in a few days that gets me through the bad days. I follow up with my docs carefully, and every one - my insurance PCP, my thinks-outside- the-box doc, my GI guy, and my meds shrink - know everything I'm taking down to the last acidopholous capsule. I've been fortunate to maintain long term relationships with these docs. If they leave or stop practicing, there will be records of my visits, and records of my prescription, and histories going back years. I feel for the people who are taking narcotics. I just don't want to go there if I can help it. Z Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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