Re: Jalia Camryn is now with God

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My thoughts and prayers are with you. I can't even imagine the heartache

you must have. God Bless you and your family.

Sincerely,

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parents to Shane, 4 yrs, and Logan, 4 months, CHaRGE

" Lia "

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My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

and to take all her pain.

I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

Lia

Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

Jadon 3/9/05

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[Guest guest]

You and your family are our prayers. I have a 15month old charger &

could not even begin to imagine life without him. I've often thought

if something were to happen to him I could not go on, but you're

right, your 2yr old son needs you. I will pray for you, God Bless

you, try to stay strong.

Molly & Aiden (15month old charger)

>

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and

Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She

finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a

little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost

100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he

got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth

and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her

and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't

breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to

pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted

later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after

she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave

her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen

when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her

lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting

on a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her

suffer. I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on,

but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it

is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her

here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice

(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can

still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

[Guest guest]

Lia, I am soo sorry for your loss. I read your email a couple of

times and my eyes are full of tears. May you feel the presence of God

in your lives during these times...he is with you and your family and

you must trust that he is walking along side you through this process

of grief. Jalia is in heaven, she is no longer suffering... you

must keep your focus on that for the sake of yourself, for the sake

of your son and your family. We are all here for you if you ever

need to talk. God bless. You'll be in our prayers.

Sincerely, Vacca mom to Alissa Vacca 24 month old charger.

>

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and

Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She

finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost

100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth

and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her

and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't

breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to

pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen

when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on

a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer.

I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on,

but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it

is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her

here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice

(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can

still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

[Guest guest]

Dear lia:

I know it's difficult to understand why, and all the love you have now

in your heart , yhat love for jalia is the seed she leaves you, her

spoul came to you to make you happy and a loving mother ´cause this

kids are all love , makes you feel the best and the only one with them

smiles , her time here ended but your time togheter is for ever love

bless you, like jalia does now, we send you all our love and the

biggest hugs in the world..jalia now is in my heart too..

jenny and josh

[Guest guest]

Lia, it breaks my heart and brings tears to my eyes that another baby

is gone.

Thank you for sharing her story with us. I hope I can channel all my

hugs &

strength straight to you-

wishing you much peace and love,

Theresa & Sammy, 16 months

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

i am very sorry to hear what happened. my baby passes at 15 months. i was only

19. i know hat you are feeling. if you need anyone to talk to i am here. god

bless ......brittney

Re: Jalia Camryn is now with God

Lia, it breaks my heart and brings tears to my eyes that another baby

is gone.

Thank you for sharing her story with us. I hope I can channel all my

hugs &

strength straight to you-

wishing you much peace and love,

Theresa & Sammy, 16 months

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss.

Many prayers and hugs coming to you from NV.

Trish

Sammy 6 wks CHARGEr

> Re: Jalia Camryn is now with God

>

> Lia, it breaks my heart and brings tears to my eyes that

another baby

> is gone.

> Thank you for sharing her story with us. I hope I can channel all

my

> hugs &

> strength straight to you-

> wishing you much peace and love,

> Theresa & Sammy, 16 months

>

>

>

> > My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13

months

> > old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> > learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> > hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and

Pnemonia.

> > She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She

finally

> > made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a

little

> > oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost

100%.

> > Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> > from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> > that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he

got

> > in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth

and

> > ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her

and

> > she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't

breathing.

> > I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to

pat

> > her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted

later

> > and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> > breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> > breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after

she

> > stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> > 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> > probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen

when

> > your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> > ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in

the

> > 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> > occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her

lasix

> > to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting

on a

> > sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> > regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> > venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> > would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her

suffer. I

> > held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> > beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on,

but

> > I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> > empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh.

I

> > guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it

is.

> > I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her

here

> > and to take all her pain.

> >

> > I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> > Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be

nice(

> > wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can

still

> > see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> > empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

> >

> > Lia

> > Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> > I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> > Jadon 3/9/05

> >

> >

> >

>

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Lia,

Oh, I am so so sorry to hear about Jalia. I hope you can find some comfort

in all the messages of support and love you have received.

All our thoughts are with you. Sending many ((((hugs))))).

is (Mum to , 3, UK)

>

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Lia,

I share your sorrow and pain and I hope that you and your family can find

the strength you need now. Jalia felt your love and was happy to have you as

her mommy and she WAnts you to remember the good times and the smiles and

laughter that she left with you here to help you now.

Sending you hugs and love,

LIz, grandma to

9 months old, he has had 6 surgeries, 2 open heart surgeries and many near

death episodes. And his heart stopped before they decided to put in a

pacemaker. He just came home Thursday from the hospital and is back in this

morning, desat and seizures. I live in fear that he could leave us one day,

and I try to read all the encouraging stories of Charge babies here but what

is really hard is to read the sad stories like yours. The heartbreak that

parents go through each time we lose a little angel is unbelievable.

Peace and love,

LIz

'

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Lia,

I am so sorry to hear about Jalia. I can't imagine the heartbreak you are

going through right now after having had that little special sweetheart in

your life for 13 months. Wishing you much love and strength,

& the rest of the Weir family, New Brunswick, Canada

(Kennedy's Mom)

www.chargesyndrome.info

>

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

>

>

--

" It is far better to grasp the universe as it really is than to persist in

delusion, however satisfying and reassuring. " --Carl Sagan

[Guest guest]

im very sorry for your loss, our thoughts are with you all. kellie, tony and

CHARGE caitlyn (16mnths)

>

>Reply-To: CHARGE

>To: CHARGE

>Subject: Jalia Camryn is now with God

>Date: Fri, 20 Apr 2007 03:44:36 -0000

>

>My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

>old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

>learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

>hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

>She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

>made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

>oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

>Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

>from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

>that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

>in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

>ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

>she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

>I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

>her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

>and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

>breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

>breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

>stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

>4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

>probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

>your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

>ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

>80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

>occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

>to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

>sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

>regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

>venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

>would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

>held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

>beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

>I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

>empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

>guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

>I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

>and to take all her pain.

>

>I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

>Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

>wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

>see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

>empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

>Lia

>Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

>I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

>Jadon 3/9/05

>

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> >

> > My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13

months

> > old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> > learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia

was

> > hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and

> Pnemonia.

> > She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She

> finally

> > made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a

little

> > oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost

> 100%.

> > Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam

ehome

> > from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very

congested

> > that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he

got

> > in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my

teeth

> and

> > ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her

> and

> > she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't

> breathing.

> > I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started

to

> pat

> > her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted

later

> > and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> > breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> > breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after

she

> > stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave

her

> > 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> > probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen

> when

> > your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> > ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in

the

> > 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> > occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her

lasix

> > to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting

on

> a

> > sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> > regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on

the

> > venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do,

we

> > would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her

suffer.

> I

> > held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart

stopped

> > beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on,

> but

> > I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel

so

> > empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh.

I

> > guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it

> is.

> > I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her

> here

> > and to take all her pain.

> >

> > I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could

understand.

> > Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be

nice

> (

> > wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can

> still

> > see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> > empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

> >

> > Lia

> > Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> > I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> > Jadon 3/9/05

> >

>Hi, my name is and like you I don't post often, but i do read

all the e-mails. My heart goes out to you and your family. You

have lost such a precious child. A child loaned to you from God.

If you lean on HIM, I know he will get you through this. My

daughter (who has charge) just turned 25 years old and according to

the Dr.'s she should not have lived past 6 months. But only

god can make that choice. She has been such a blessing in my life.

Hold onto your other child, cause he too is a blessing. I do

believe that you would not have wanted your little girl to be

suffering. Remember your time with her and cherish it. I lost a

little girl a couple of years after my charge child was born, to

SIDS. I'm sure it isn't the same but the loss of a child is very

devastating and I know there are no words that can comfort you right

now, but please know that you are in my prayers and thoughts. I

send you a BIG HUG and lots of good thoughts. God Bless you and

your family.

[Guest guest]

I am amazed by your strength. I am a peeker too, but you moved me, and you

must remember Jalia was so blessed to have you. my thoughts and prayers are

with you. Take your time with this challenge. I send you a huge

cyberhug.Gwendelyn, mom to Chloe 5 , ph almost 4 CHARGEr ,Lulu,2

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[Guest guest]

My God, Lia... I wish I could send more than virtual

hugs. We will pray for you and your family during

this time- and always.

With love,

ina, mom to Luca and Vinny (22 months w/ cHARgE)

--- Lia williamsquadx4@...> wrote:

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia

> CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most

> posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people

> here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for

> RSV and Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13

> days. She finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home

> with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back

> to almost 100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since

> she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was

> very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at

> 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to

> brush my teeth and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked

> over at her and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she

> wasn't breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll.

> I started to pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about

> 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying

> to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she

> still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45

> minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes.

> They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going.

> As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ

> damaage can happen when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They

> put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels

> stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put

> her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They

> gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I

> was waiting on a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She

> never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while

> she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was

> going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to

> let her suffer. I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her

> heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I

> can't go on, but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I

> still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me

> smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't

> know what it is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I

> could have her here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who

> could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in

> person would be nice(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making

> arrangements. I can still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite

> bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

>

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[Guest guest]

Lia,

I am so sorry for your pain. I wish you strength and support at this time.

My prayers are with you and Jalia. May you be held closely.

Bonnie, Mom to Kris 24, Patty CHARGE 22 and wife to

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[Guest guest]

Lia,

So sorry to read about the loss of your little one. Makes it harder when

they get better and give you hope, then everything suddenly changes, but of

course it is always painful. Hope you have some lovely memories of Jalia in

her short life. Certainly sounds that way in your statement that she always

made you laugh and smile.

Big virtual hugs coming to you and hopefully you are getting lots of real

ones too. You are in our thoughts.

Flo, Simon and the girls.

--

Flo (UK)

Mum to - CHARGE - (6) and Elly (4)

[Guest guest]

Lia,

I am so sorry to learn of your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are

with you at this difficult time. Sending you strength and love from

Massachusetts...

The Koehlers

>

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and

Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She

finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost

100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth

and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her

and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't

breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to

pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen

when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on

a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer.

I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on,

but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it

is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her

here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice

(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can

still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Lia,

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your

family.

Elvia, Mom of Tony 10, Mikey and Marisela 8, and Alyssa (CHARGE) 11mo.

>

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and

Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She

finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost

100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth

and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her

and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't

breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to

pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen

when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on

a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer.

I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on,

but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it

is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her

here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice

(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can

still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Lia,

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your

family.

Elvia, Mom of Tony 10, Mikey and Marisela 8, and Alyssa (CHARGE) 11mo.

>

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and

Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She

finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost

100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth

and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her

and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't

breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to

pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen

when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on

a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer.

I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on,

but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it

is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her

here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice

(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can

still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

[Guest guest]

Lia,

My hearts breaks for you. We lost our little girl at 18 months back in

Januray. We also have a 6 year son who is still here. Please feel free to

email me if you need to vent. Also, you should join the CHARGE Angels group

when you are up to it. Its full of moms who understand exactly what you are

going through, as we have all (unfortunately) been there.

I'll be praying for you. Know that Cedie, Kate(another CHARGEr who recently

passed), and all the other CHARGE angels are taking good care of Jalia and

showing her around Heaven.

Sincerely,

Mock

jennlmock@...

>

> My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

> old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

> learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

> hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

> She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

> made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

> oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

> Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

> from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

> that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

> in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

> ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

> she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

> I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

> her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

> and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

> breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

> breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

> stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

> 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

> probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

> your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

> ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

> 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

> occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

> to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

> sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

> regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

> venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

> would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

> held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

> beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

> I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

> empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

> guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

> I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

> and to take all her pain.

>

> I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

> Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

> wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

> see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

> empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>

> Lia

> Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

> I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

> Jadon 3/9/05

>

>

>

--

Mock

mom to Dylan (5 yrs old) & Cedie (10 mth old charger)

[Guest guest]

Dear Lia,

I was away from the list when your message came through. I am so sad for you

and for your family¹s loss. I know you will miss Jalia and that she will

stay in your heart forever.

Sending you all the cyber hugs you want and need.

pam

>

>

>

>

> Lia,

>

> My hearts breaks for you. We lost our little girl at 18 months back in

> Januray. We also have a 6 year son who is still here. Please feel free to

> email me if you need to vent. Also, you should join the CHARGE Angels group

> when you are up to it. Its full of moms who understand exactly what you are

> going through, as we have all (unfortunately) been there.

>

> I'll be praying for you. Know that Cedie, Kate(another CHARGEr who recently

> passed), and all the other CHARGE angels are taking good care of Jalia and

> showing her around Heaven.

>

> Sincerely,

>

> Mock

> jennlmock@...

>

> On 4/19/07, Lia williamsquadx4@...

> > wrote:

>> >

>> > My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

>> > old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

>> > learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

>> > hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

>> > She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

>> > made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

>> > oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

>> > Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

>> > from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

>> > that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

>> > in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

>> > ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

>> > she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

>> > I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

>> > her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

>> > and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

>> > breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

>> > breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

>> > stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

>> > 4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

>> > probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

>> > your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

>> > ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

>> > 80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

>> > occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

>> > to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

>> > sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

>> > regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

>> > venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

>> > would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

>> > held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

>> > beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

>> > I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

>> > empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

>> > guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

>> > I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

>> > and to take all her pain.

>> >

>> > I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

>> > Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

>> > wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

>> > see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

>> > empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

>> >

>> > Lia

>> > Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

>> > I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

>> > Jadon 3/9/05

>> >

>> >

>> >

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Pamela J. , M.A., CAGS

Licensed Educational Psychologist

Deafblind Program

Perkins School for the Blind

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