Jalia Camryn is now with God

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My name is Lia and I am the proud mother of Jalia CHaRgE 13 months

old. I don't post that much, but I do read most posts. I have

learned so much from all of the wonderful people here. Jalia was

hospitalized from March 19, 2007-Aril 11, 2007 for RSV and Pnemonia.

She was very sick and was on the ventalator for 13 days. She finally

made a turn around and we were able to come home with just a little

oxygen(.2 hardly anything) until her lungs were back to almost 100%.

Well on Wednesday Aril 18th, exactly one week since she cam ehome

from the hosiptla. she stopped breathing. She was very congested

that morning, and I was going to call the doctor at 9am when he got

in. She was sleeping so I went in the bathroom,to brush my teeth and

ect. I came back about 3-5 min8tes later. I looked over at her and

she just didn't look right. I ran to her adn she wasn't breathing.

I picked her up and she was floppy like a rag doll. I started to pat

her back as I dialed 911. The police arrived about 3 minuted later

and proceeded to give her oxygen. They were trying to get her

breathing again. Once we reached the hospital she still was not

breathing. The finally got her heart beating, 45 minutes after she

stopped breathing. My baby was dead for 45 minutes. They gave her

4x the normal amount of medication to get her going. As youall

probably know how much brain damage and organ damaage can happen when

your body doesn't have oxygen for 45 minutes. They put her on a

ventilator at 100? oxygen, but her saturation levels stayed in the

80's, so they kept bagging her. They wanted to put her on the

occilator, but her blood pressure was too low. They gave her lasix

to get her to pee, but her kidneys had shut down. I was waiting on a

sign from her or God to help me make a decision. She never once

regained conciousness. They let me hold her while she was on the

venilator. We decided that whatever her body was going to do, we

would just accept it. It would be selfish of us to let her suffer. I

held her in my arms for about 15 minutes before her heart stopped

beating. I am so lost and confused. I feel like I can't go on, but

I have my 2 year old son Jadon that needs me. But I still feel so

empty. I miss my little girl who always made me smile and laugh. I

guess God had a plan and a lesson, but I just don't know what it is.

I want my baby back. I would give my life, if I could have her here

and to take all her pain.

I just wanted to vent my feelings to people who could understand.

Please send virtual hugs this way, or a hug in person would be nice(

wishful thinking). I just finished making arrangements. I can still

see and smell her in the nursery. Her favorite bouncer is now

empty. her windchimes are silent. Thanks

Lia

Mommy to Jalia Camryn 2/21/06-4/18/2007

I MISS YOU MUNCHKIN!!!!!!!!!!!

Jadon 3/9/05