Checkin in..

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Time to check in. Tawny it was, I think wrote how we impose our own

barriers sometimes I wanted to say before I forgot. I chuckled at

your response to the child at pool..I needed something to take my

mind off my own problem at the time. I have not gone to see my

brother for quite sometime. I let my own personal barriers stop me.

My brother has had mental problems- all of his life. I had called

his caseworker several times, to get advise how to tell my brother

or should I shake it off by telling him I just injured my leg that

is why I have such odd walk . I did not want to upset him, with my

own illness. It is very obvious that with our pls there is something

wrong with our walk ,and wall grabbing.. He would ask what was

wrong.I could not understand after several calls,the caseworker

never would call me back. Not till last Friday it was obious why.

While surfing on internet for another long lost brother who has been

missing for over 30 years. I clicked on ss death records. No record

for missing brother, but shocked there was my other brothers name.

Dennis my brother with mental illness. It was clear as why the

caseworker did not return my calls. How could this happened,no call

to the next of kin. I got on phone and wanted some answers. They

would tell me nothing, blamed it on Hippa Law. Ater several calls to

3 differnet corners, found the right one. He and other corners were

shocked at the fact no family members were notified. He then read

everything in his file. Dennis had a stroke, transfered to another

county, placed in hospice where he died.But get this he died 1-4-

2005. ALL this time not knowing. Called funeral home told me he was

buried and where. Called cemetary..records show his body not there.

I heard that I instantly " THREW UP ALL OVER MY FLOOR " . After a few

minutes calmed myself down and cleaned the mess up on floor, to now

locate his remains. After several more calls, learned he was

cremated. Now I stand here were more questions and nobody wanting to

talk. All now being swept under the rug. I was also told his case is

now ''OFICALLY CLOSE " Like he was trash forgotten and thrown away.

Trying to deal with it I want to scream to all, how could this

happen and how many people who don't have a voice for others to

hear? My next step not sure, without getting myself in trouble by

getting sued for something I might say. Can this happen again?

WORRIED cause my mother is in nursing home and has a caseworker too,

she suffers with brain damage.I don't know where to turn or who. I

do know now, I should have went to see my brother, even with this

pls..so you see we do set our own self barriers. Let you know what

else happens but I do feel like nobody will make call backs to me.

Thanks my pls friends for letting me vent...huggs in Ohio.