Injectibles Worry and My Long Story

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Hello Ladies,

I haven't been reading/posting lately because it got too hard to

focus so much on ttc'ing and it's easier to ignore the fact that

you're so many months into ttc'ing and no results when you're in

denial.

I guess after about 6 months of attempting IUI's (only actually did

them 2 times out of the 6), it was time to check back in with the

actual doctor (RE) regarding my situation. I saw him today.

My situation (found out first of this year) is that I have a

congenital unicornuate uterus. We think it will be big enough to

have a fairly OK pregnancy in, but we can't get me pregnant. Also,

my one good ovary is VERY high (in line with my belly button) so it

somewhat reduces the chances that the fallopian tube will pick up an

egg. Sono's very painful too.

This means that every cycle we attempt an IUI, the chances are

lowered that it will work, so I need to be taking some follitizer.

I did one Clomid cycle, and didn't seem to respond to it with

multiple eggs (just one, like normal). I was horribly depressed on

it, so after one IUI (didn't work) we moved to Femara (Letrozol).

We did a natural cycle in between, also didn't work. (I believe the

timing on BOTH the IUI's were not that great and I think the doctor

agrees with me.)

On Femara, I ovulated on day 11 the first time, and my first sono to

monitor follicle growth was day 12. So we missed that window. Next

cycle was skipped, and then back on Femara. The doctor insists that

I never ovulated then, because I had a 19-day cycle. My

next " natural " cycle was 16 days. Although I am fairly certain I

felt ovulation on day 7, doctor says I probably didn't ovulate that

cycle. I have never had such a short cycle in all my years until

now. It freaked me out a little.

Now they are also going to test me for thyroid, etc., as all my

hormone counts seem to come back " borderline " .

He is talking about injectibles now. That scares me alot - I don't

know why, except for cost and worrying about ovarian

hyperstimulation syndrome. Doctor says that because of my

situation, we really need multiple eggs to make the IUI's

worthwhile. I was very opposed to injectibles, because I once heard

someone say that it ruined them and pushed them straight to

menopause. Doctor says this cannot be true, and that they watch you

very closely and can usually prevent this if it starts to happen.

I am feeling very desperate, I am 35, and right now I feel like it's

not going to happen, so why am I struggling through all of this with

some small hope that it will work? I know many of you out there

have felt this feeling many times and that you understand.

Does anyone have any advice for me concerning the injectibles? From

what the doctor says, it makes sense to do them, but I'm scared.

Not of the shots, but of the possible side effects and effect on my

body.

Does anyone have any advice for me?

Thanks - now I'm going to get caught up with what's been " going on "

here

Kimber