The window...

[Guest guest]

Eve, I have been where you are, and I didn't believe there was a window,

but there is, trust me. I found it, and you will too. I could not

imagine ever feeling good again, I hated my life and how I felt and that

I couldn't do anything about it. My doctor finally found the right med

for me and it was like it finally opened up the window for me. I was so

badly depressed (I think they call it depressive psychosis) but I felt

like I was two people, and I could'nt control which one of me got

control. I would say I wanted to be left alone, but inside myself I

wouold be struggling to say that that was a lie but couldn't. I

probably would have been suicidal if I had had the energy to consider

it. I do think you are clinically depressed, what is going on with you

goes beyond not sleeping I think. Cause it sounds so much like where I

was. But I got out of that depression, and you will too, just hang it

there. It will get better, and it will be worth hanging on for.

Meg