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Hi everyone,

DEPRESSION: I understand the controversy being written here, because I too

have been there.

This is hard to express for me because only a handful of people know what I went

through

many years ago. I commend ne's courage to describe her family member's

suffering and this

inspired me to tell what happened to me. When I was 5 mths pregnant with my

second child (ten years

ago), I was committed to the psychiatric ward because of my RLS. Although the

doctors didn't

know what it was that was sending me to the " zoo " . Lack of sleep and worried

about my unborn

child did it. Lori writes about spasms. WELL, these same spasms started twice

labour during

this pregancy! The spasms during pregancy would not just be concentrated on the

legs, they

would start at hip area, " wrap around " groin area, and shoot down my right leg

and out my foot

in a jerk. This was constant day & night. I lost it. I came very close to

losing my child and

because I was told there was no " clinical " reason for this, I was told to get a

grip, it was in my

head, and just relax.....Nine months of this I endured. I had suicidal

thoughts, many times.

Were it not for my husband and his patience and love & support, I would not

have made it through.

So basically one has to wonder what comes first? Was I already in a depression

state or did RLS

bring it on? I try not to go to that dark place when things are real bad. But

there are days

that it is overwhelming even to this day. BTW, I was never given medication

because of the baby,

so I survived on chamomile tea all day, everyday.

LORIE, welcome!

ART, there are so many interesting subjects going on at all times in this group

and I love to participate.

As I had written before in another post, I've been suffering alone in silence

for too long. I'll try to be

aware of how many I post per day from here on. Have a great Easter, too.

PAUL, thank you for that.