Guest guest Posted May 3, 1999 Report Share Posted May 3, 1999 Hello, Just me trying to make sense out of my life, as usual. I try to take one day at a time and deal with things as they come. Today though, I am finding things very difficult to deal with. Overwhelmed,yet disgusted-I don't even know any more!I had an appt w/my primary and thought it was just a follow up, but it was my annual physical! Oh goody!!I was not prepared for a pap and all, oh well, it's over. But, as I was waiting in the exam room, I just burst into tears. Something I never do.I suppose that trying to be strong all the time and pretending that I'm superwoman and can handle it all is just too much.Because of the rain and the pending menstral cycle, all symptoms were at it's height. Maybe it was a good thing that I cried,maybe I shouldn't pretend that I can handle everything, when in fact I can't. Has anyone ever noticed that family or friends are seemingly nonconcerned when things aren't going well, but they're you're best buddies when things are going well?When they ask, " how are you doing? " , they don't want to hear that you're legs are acting up or that you only got 2hrs of sleep, or that you're on you're 3rd dr's appt. for that week and it's only Wednesday!No, they just want to hear , " oh, I'm fine how are you? " -Does anyone know why we bother to ask each other that question if we really don't want to hear the answer?Since I started working in the health care field, I realized along time ago, that people really just want to be heard. Not yes'd to death, or, " I know what you're feeling " , when in fact they don't. No, instead, it's been my observation that people just want to be heard, nothing has to be said, just someone to listen to them. I don't know, this has been one hell of a year for me, and my family.But at least I can say that we're still all in one piece.And still together!! Just can't seem to get out of this rut.My shovel broke. Maybe I'll try a bulldozer:) Well, I don't want to be accused of whinning, so I'll stop while I'm ahead. Take care all and sleep well- le R.I. _______________________________________________________________ Get Free Email and Do More On The Web. Visit http://www.msn.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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