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[Guest guest]

Hello -

I am one of the lurkers that set back and took all of the info in.

I have been here for several months. What an emotional journey

all of this has been. I have laugh, cried, prayed and dreamed a lot!

One of my best friends had this surgery at the end of Dec., and has

lost 80 some pounds. She purposely brought me to a clinic before her

surgery, so that I would not be scared for her, and also to put the thought

into my head for my self. I thank her for bringing me to Dr. R, and all of

you!

I opened my insurance approval letter on Thursday evening. I had that feeling

that this was it. I read it several times and put it down, and picked it up

again

to make REAL sure that this was the real thing. When I picked up

the envelope I noticed that it was addressed to Dr. R and had his address

in Durham. I took the paper out, thinking that I had folded it wrong when I

put

it back into the envelope. But I didn't. I showed my husband, who swore

that it must have come in another envelope, or that I misplaced a piece of

paper.

I am chalking this one up to a miracle.

You see, I turned all of this over to GOD a few weeks ago. I have been

praying

pretty heavily since all of this began.(Jan. sometime) Once I thought that

was trying to improve her life, to live longer for her family, and now she

was gone.

And I thought, I am trying to do the same thing. Am I doing the right thing?

I prayed, prayed, and prayed some more. Then when time passed and no word

from the insurance co., I thought that maybe this was not my time. I had

decided to

turn it all over to HIM. If he thought this was for me, he would see that I

got approved

and had the surgery. Well, the envelope incident was my answer. I also

believe

it is my guardian angel, my beautiful grandmother Betty, who passed away

from complications due to diabetes. She was only 72 and looked 52. Her

deterioration went fast, and I miss her terribly. She wanted me to lose wait

so bad.

Even on her death bed, she would say " You know Kimmy, you really should get

that

weight off. " I have gained 30 pounds since she died last August. She is

looking out for me.

I will have to say that I am still scared. I have two beautiful daughters 3

and 11, and a wonderful husband, 36. ha!

Thank you for letting me share. This has been locked up for a while.

Now I ask for your prayers, like I have given to everyone. I need strength!

If anyone has advice for a newbie, please post!

Love,

Kim Cook

NC

BMI 58