Hypnosis--- VERY LONG---Sorry

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Ok guys, you are either going to love this or think I am the weirdest piece

of work out there. I any event, I have tried to write down the meditation I

used to calm myself before surgery. I used it MOSTLY at home the two weeks

before, but everytime I would feel a little afraid, or whatever, I would do

it even at the hospital, especially in the pre-op area. I hope this doesn't

clutter up the digest too much, but it is long.

NOTE: I have written in CAPS what I DID, and in regular type what I thought.

If you want to try this, I suggest you go to a book store for a tape or to

someone who does hypno-therapy and have them help you. At a book store you

can buy a self- hypnosis tape which will give you the general idea of how

this works and then you just apply your own image. This is the image I used,

but be creative and use what is helpful to you. The more you practice the

better you get at it. I worked a lot on this the two weeks before surgery.

I GOT AS RELAXED AS I COULD, COMFORTABLE, WARM ENOUGH, AND TRIED TO RELAX MY

BODY. FIRST I STARTED AT THE TOP OF MY HEAD AND WORKING MY WAY DOWN TOLD

EACH MUSCLE GROUP TO RELAX UNTIL EVEN MY LITTLE PIGGIES WERE RELAXING.

I look ahead and I see a beautiful gate, not like Heaven's Gate, but

nevertheless a beautiful gate with an arch. There is a short path to the

arch and I know this is the path to the other side. There is a beautiful

angel in the upper right hand arch and when I see the braveheart and the

Viking Helmet, I know instinctively that it is who had come to guide

me to this new life. I am joyous, I am unafraid. As I step through the arch

there are stone steps, and instead of leading downward or upward, they lead

me inward. I pause on each step and drink in the excitement of what lays

ahead for me. Slowly, I progress, one step at a time. Each time, going more

inward as I proceed on my journey. At the most inward step I get a glimpse

for the first time of " the room " . It is more than I can imagine. Everything

I need for the journey is there.

IF YOU HAVE BEEN TO DISNEY WORLD, THIS ROOM REMINDED ME OF THE MEXICAN

EXHIBIT AT EPCOT. IT ISN'T HEAVEN LIKE, BUT BEAUTIFUL AND STONE COVERED,

VERY SACRED AND SPECIAL.

Looking around the room, I see all these stations. At first I am not sure

what they are or why they are there, but they interest me. I decide to first

go to the station of faith. There I enter a little gazebo type structure

and I am washed in the warmth of my faith. My faith in God and all the verses

of scripture that sustain me come to me at once and I know that this surgery

is part of God's unique plan for my life. I feel so blessed and reassured.

Next, I enter the station of commitment and I am astounded at the level of my

commitment. I know in every being of my body that I am making the right

choice. Any fears that I have fall off of me and I hear then lamely, one at

a time, hit the stone floor and break away from me.

Next, I enter the station of wisdom. I am totally aware of how well trained

Dr. R is and all that he has learned on this journey. I acknowledge his

experience as a trauma surgeon and as an obesity surgeon. I recognize that

God has given him this gift and he uses it wisely. I am aware that he takes

no chances, that he is careful with his gift and that my life is safe in his

skilled hands. I am aware of the care and dedication and wisdom of all the

people who will be helping me on my journey to the other side. I bask in the

delight of all the others patients who have gone before me and who stand

wise and safely on the other side.

Next, I turn to the rest of the room and there are more stations than I

could ever hope to visit, but each of them has the very answer that I need

now or may at some later point in my journey need. I realize I can come

back here anytime I need to and get whatever I need from another station. So

I walk to the ones that seem most helpful to me. I visit the station of the

angels, my dear Dad is there and I can feel his hug and his pride and he

acknowledges my courage and tells me I am on the right path. He rejoices

that I picked Dr. R to do the surgery because he always insisted on the best!

Our precious is also there, telling me not to be afraid and that

angels are all around to protect me. I can see other angels and while I do

not know their names, they are familiar. I am comforted by their presence

and the knowledge that I have always had angels guiding my life.

Next, I walk into the station of the keys to weight loss. It is a round,

very tall cylinder shaped station. Inside, keys of every sort, and shape and

description are hanging on the walls. I could not possibly take them all,

but I want to, to be certain I have the one I need. As soon as I reach for

one it is replaced on the peg with another. At first I am confused. Does

this mean there is only one key to real, substantial weight loss? Then I

laugh as I realize that ALL the keys fit the lock regardless of their shape

or size. There is no mystery, no key to be earned, just the gift of the key,

and it always works. I am delirious in my delight at this discovery.

Next I walk into the station of support and I am overwhelmed by the love that

is directed at me. I can feel the power of the love from my friends all at

once, it one powerful, overwhelming emotion. My neighbors, co-workers, my

church family, my MGB buds, my bunko buds, my girlfriends, my family, my

friends from Pairs, everyone who ever supported this dream is there and I

bask in their love. It is all directed at me in one overwhelming moment. I

recognize that it is not difficult to accept this love, that it is a

treasure. I feel warm and sparkly from the mere thought of it.

I enter the station of exercise, even though I am not sure I even want to go

in. This has been such a wonderful visit and I don't want to ruin it with

exercise. I am surprised when I am bathe in the joy of exercise. When I

realize that my body will move as it is intended and with each movement I

will become more mobile and free. I dance with joy in this station, amazed

that I could get such pleasure from exercise. I feel my body grow smaller

and healthier with each step.

I visit the station of abundance. Here I learn that I will always have

enough. I feel the abundance in my life and I have no fear of what I won't

be able to eat, or the amount I will be able to eat. I feel content and

satisfied, right in the middle of my being. I know their will be enough

food, enough weight loss, enough of all that I need in my life and on this

journey.

Finally, I enter the station of relaxation and I rest in the contentment that

I can return to the room whenever I am afraid or need another tool. There

are so many stations that I can't even see them all, so I know that I will

want to come back to this room when I have a need. My need will be met here.

I take in all that I have learned.

THEN, WHEN I AM READY I CONTINUE ON MY JOURNEY, ONLY THIS TIME I TAKE THE

STEPS OUTWARD. I AM BECOMING MORE AWARE OF EVERYTHING AROUND ME. I FEEL

SAFE AND SECURE. I AM JOYOUS THAT I GOT TO VISIT THE ROOM AND THAT IT IS

THERE FOR ME TO RETURN WHENEVER I WANT OR NEED IT. SLOWLY, I CONTINUE TO

BECOME MORE AWARE OF THE SOUNDS IN THE ROOM AND THE FEELINGS IN MY LIMBS AND

I OPEN MY EYES, RELAXED AND HAPPY TO BE ON THIS JOURNEY.

Safe journey,

MGB 03 MAY 00

Safely on the other side!!!!

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