Wonderful people, warriors of life :-}

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Dear sweet peopple of this list, I want to thank all of you for

all the kind words and your generosity ( 's memorial fund). I

am sorry I have not posted any thoughts or response for a long time.

Grieve is a strange thing. I went to work and I can be fine at work

but when I come home I am like a basket case.

The fininacial status of 's family is horrible, and that

is my most worry. It seem that they might loose eveything they

worked for. was the main breadwinner, e.a. her salery was

very high, but she had only worked where she worked for few months.

She had been a stay home mom. Now there is a fine print in the life

insurance,and fine print everywhere........ it is makin me crazy. I

will not burden you with that.

I need your help despertly, because I know now for sure that I

will need to go home to help. I am needed there and I will go with

honor, for it will be an honor for me to assist with rasing my

sister's children. Her children and husband were her love and reason

for life. When I told her as she lay in ICU, unconcious, I told her

if

anything happened to her I would help with the children, and a tear

leaked our of her eye. I knew she could hear me.

I need to sell my house and get my things here ready, and it

will take time, so I am not leaving right now. It will probably take

few months.

I need your help because I have 4 dogs. I rescue dogs and my

dogs are like the rejects of the rejects. I love them but I can not

take them with me due to Icelandic restrictions. There is no rabies

in Iceland so if you bring in a dog they have to stay in quaranteen

for 9 months, and it will make them crazy. Also it costs 5.000 and

they do not take big dogs. My dogs are big.

I am only asking and I will understand if no one of you can do

or does not know anyone who wants a dog, but my question is, is there

anyone who wants a dog? Anyone who loves dogs, and could not imagine

life without one. Someone who can look into the eyes of a dog and

see themselfs, their life, love and loss. Anyone who can not look at

a dog without touching them, getting a smile. Anyone who enjoy the

bark and is able to know what the dogs want just by looking at them,

or listining to their bark. Someone who will do anything for dogs,

or

any animals for that matter.

I have 4 dogs, a rottweiler named Zeus, pittbull named Kat,

beagle named lin, and a mutt named Gandalf.

Zeus is a big baby. He loves to play tug of war, to have his

tummy scratched, and chew a bone. He is always busy, and is the

biggest baby in the world. If you scold him he runs to hide. He

needs attention, he loves to be hugged and rubbed, can not get enough

of it.

Kat is such a lady. When I got her she had been hurt so much.

She had come through everythign with flying colors. She is very

quiet, loves to lay next to you and sleep. She needs to touch you

anywhere, just a paw or something, but she needs to know you are

there. She loves you totally, and loves to be touched, petted, and

talked to.

If you are sad she will be there next to you and never leave. Her

face is so beautiful. She is not like other pitbulls because she was

abused so much that she is not visious. She is calm, and very smart.

She listens to everything you do and is very scared of the vet. The

vet I have laughs all the time for Kat shakes, rattles and rolls when

I bring her. Kat is wonderful sweet, and loves to run, play and chew.

Gandalf, oh my boy Gandalf. He is the mother of the bunch. He

loves to be loved, and talked to and he talks back. He is a worry

wart. He makes sure everyone is taken care of. If he does not like

what I have done he talke to me, looks at me and lets me know that he

is not happy. Gandalf is wonderful, he is sweet, good with all dogs

and just lovy dovy,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, He is beond words, oh my sweet

dogs, my heart will be broken in more pieces than I can handle.

These

dogs are my family, and it is very hard for me to do this, I can not

belive that I am having to do this. But I know I have to. I talked

to 's little girl yesterday, her name is Sigfridur Arna. She

plays the cello. I asked her how she was doing. She told me that

she

was not going to play it anymore because only her mom knew how to help

her and her dad did not know anything. I laughed and asked her if

she

would allow me to help her, she paused and then said yes, that was

enough for me to know where I am supposed to be.

But my dogs are so important to me. I love them with all my

heart. They are my world, but I know what I have to do.

lin is a beagle, and yes he is a beagle. He loves to eat,

and be loved on. He wants to sleep with you and also eat what you

eat. But of course he does not like what I am eating now,

LOLOLOLOLOL.

Dear people who have given money to the fund, and given me so

much in letters and cards, I almost feel that this is to much to aske

for. It seems like I do nothing but ask for something. I just does

not know what to do, or where to turn. But I will understand, and

not feel bad if there is no response, this is just a try for me.

I know you are all people like me, struggling, warriors of life,

fighting the fight of life, and the mighty dollar will only stretch

so far.

Please do not feel bad if you can not help in any shape or from,

for we can not do everythign we want. I have struggled for such a

long time to know what to do, but now after talking to the girls I

know my fate, but now I have to take care of my dogs.

I want to thank you for reading my post and for giving money to

the memorial fund. I know it will help so much. My language nor the

English language has the words to express my graditude for your

generosity. And again please do not feel bad if you can not help,

maybe you know someone who is able to take the dogs or not. It is

fine, I do not want you to feel bad or inaduquate not being able to

help me. Remember you are starting your wonderful journey into life,

life where you have at least one control, and that is over your food.

And that is great.

I feel very good physically, I loose weight left and right, look

very good. So this operation is fantastic. But please again do not

feel bad if you can not help me, just make sure you do the best for

you. 's death has taught me that you have to make sure to

make time for you, to do what you want to do. Not the let a mean

boss, or family feud make or brake your day. Just continue and wrap

yourself in the light of God and do what is right for you.

I know I am doing the right thing for me, I have to go and make

sure that 's daughters are fine. They have a very good dad,

but he has to work and you know whith so many children another hand

in rasing them is very needed.

I thank all of you and it has been an honor to get to read your

posts, see your struggles and happyness when you are approved. To

see the pure warrior spirit befor and after surgery,,,,,,,,,,,,, keep

on fighting for good life, and please do not feel bad if you can not

help me,,,,,,,,,,,, with great respect Ragnhildur Fanney