Watching water boil......

[Guest guest]

Hey, guys, me again.... this day is killing me (I'm

really sick and miserable and want to go home and go

to bed - but still stuck at work) and BCBS should let

me know something today. So, I'm here at work for two

reasons: waiting for my answer and because I only

have a few sick days and I need to save them for the

surgery! So, while I'm sitting here, useless to my

clients because I'm brain-dead today, I decided I

would take part in the fun I've seen on the list in

the past: things I will never do again after I lose

this weight! O.K. - here goes: (1) Put small servings

on my plate at family gatherings so as not to look

like a piglet and wait until everyone has finished and

left, then go back and get what I really wanted to eat

in the first place. (2) Steal " Coconut Rounds " from my

Dad's stash and unwrap them inside a coat so the paper

won't rattle and no one will hear me! (3) Look for

the biggest, loosest dress in the Plus-Size section of

Sears so that I'll be able to move about freely and

not sweat to death (4) Hunt endlessly for an elevator

to avoid the stairs (5) Tell everyone how miserable

and ashamed I am for being so big (6) Avoid old

friends and/or enemies from high school & college

because I don't want them to see me now (7) Avoid

cameras completely - even family photographs (8) Spend

every minute of my entire day thinking about what I

can eat next or what I'll have to eat at my next meal

(9) Dread visits from my sister-in-law who loves to go

shopping with my Mom, who always invites me, unknowing

that I'm too big to go and don't enjoy looking at

clothes anymore (10) Check the chair or couch I'm

sitting in (or on) to see how much of my butt is

hanging off. (11) Look around the room at an office

function to see if anyone is watching me fill my plate

(12) Dread showering and dressing because I only have

three or four Moo-Moos that fit and I'm tired of

wearing them (13) Spend the better part of my day

pulling and tugging at this bra from hell - checking

to see my side and " back " fat is not too disgusting

hanging out of the bra .............there are more,

I'm sure... they will come to me when I am trying to

sleep tonight. Thank you for letting me ramble.....I

think I'll request one of those cocktails in the

holding area. From what most of you have told me, I

just need to show up at the hospital in plenty of time

and they will do my EKG and bloodwork there, right? I

think I need two cocktails............. Love, Missy

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