Wish I could get on here more

[Guest guest]

Hello ladies! I would love to chat with you more!!

It's been 2 weeks (I think) since I've been able to actually sit at my computer!

UHG! It's awful because I know I would be much better if I only had more time to

focus on my healing. I checked my hotmail and I had 250 messages (from this

site etc.). I would love to read everything but if I did I wouldn't have time to

leave this message.

I guess I'm not one of the gals who get better right away =(. I've been

explanted for 5 weeks now and I'm not sure what's happening. I do notice that

every week I get a little better.

Right after explant, I was still getting panick attacks, migrains, confusion,

aches and pains, very fatigued but I figured it was from also just having a

baby, thinking about going back to work etc.

Now, 5 weeks later (been back to work 3 weeks), I am exhausted (my body feels

like it's 500lbs.)!! However, I have more and more days of clarity, some days my

pain is almost non-existent, my eyes are becoming less sensitive to light and

are able to focus a little better. I don't have panick attacks anymore and I

only had 2 migraines in the past 2 weeks. Sounds good but I'm still not

convinced I'm actually getting better. I still feel awful!! My heart pounds and

I'm winded just by walking up the stairs once. I feel so weak that it's hard to

sit up straight at all.

I'm sooo sick of everyone commenting on how tired I am. Ofcourse, I get to

blame it on the baby but If they only knew what I was really going through maybe

they would cut me some slack. GRRR!! I simply can't do what everyone else does.

I wish I could just tell everyone...but most of them would think I was nuts

anyway!!

My hubby is being more understanding..he's letting me sleep most nights during

the week while he gets up with the baby. I consider this fair considering my

condition, my energy-demanding job and he's five years younger than me, heehee!

I found a wonderful chiropractor who massages, muscle stimulates, cracks my

aching back, put me on a special diet, gave me organic supplements that are

targeted at fixing my issues. I am not detoxing because I need to the energy to

get through work. I can't feel anymore weaker than I am already. However, I'm

eating a ton of veggies and fruit and drinking a ton of water. I don't think

it's enough but what else can I do now.

I still want to see a neorologist, Patty had recommended a " implant friendly "

one in Vegas. Had an appointment with my regular physician to get a referrel

but ofcourse my babysitter needed me to pick up the baby early sooo I had to

miss it!

Soooo much to do and NO TIME or energy to do it. I'm soooo down these days even

though I feel a little better than before but I can't help but think that my doc

didn't get all my capsule out. I was only in surgery for 1 1/2 hours. He did

say my capsule was super thin and easy to get out but how do I know he got it

all. Also, he has performed this surgery on others and they were able to get

better but he isn't exactly a " implant illness " friendly doctor.

Sorry, I don't have any useful info. for all of you. I wish I had more time to

focus on my healing and give all you more support!

I'm just sooo stinkin tired, tired of all of this and somedays just don't know

how I get throught he day. I wake up very depressed everyday. I don't want to

move or do anything. I don't remember the last time I actually got excited

about something.

I have a young and very energetic husband...I almost wish he was old and boring

sooo I would feel better about being with him. Last weekend, he introduced me

to his new friends he made from work and their girlfriends. They were all in

their early 20's...laughing and having a good time. I literally wanted to end

it right there. If it wasn't for my newborn, I would probably think about this

more often. I feel like I'm a 33 year old women stuck in a 80 year old's body!

Wish I could knock on one your doors and just get a hug cuz dang...I need one

from someone who understands. All of my friends and family are trying to

understand but still constantly try to make plans with me like I have the energy

to do something. I know they are just doing what they know best but they don't

know how to help at all and I just wish they would ask.

Anyway, I know all of you are going through soo much too and I thank god

everyday that I have had you support because I don't know what I would've done

If I didn't.

Thank you!!

[Guest guest]

wish i could hug you too katie-i'm same as you remember..and i'm 32. almost 5 wks since explant. feel exactly like you do but i don't have a baby and i surely can't do peoples hair in this condition. i get dizzy spells a lot and i get winded easy as well, and the smell of Any chemical brings me to my knees. hang in there honey.bev---------- Original Message ----------From: " " <meastra1977@...> Subject: Wish I could get on here moreDate: Sat, 23 Oct 2010 23:23:33 -0000Hello ladies! I would love to chat with you more!!It's been 2 weeks (I think) since I've been able to actually sit at my computer! UHG! It's awful because I know I would be much better if I only had more time to focus on my healing. I checked my hotmail and I had 250 messages (from this site etc.). I would love to read everything but if I did I wouldn't have time to leave this message. I guess I'm not one of the gals who get better right away =(. I've been explanted for 5 weeks now and I'm not sure what's happening. I do notice that every week I get a little better. Right after explant, I was still getting panick attacks, migrains, confusion, aches and pains, very fatigued but I figured it was from also just having a baby, thinking about going back to work etc. Now, 5 weeks later (been back to work 3 weeks), I am exhausted (my body feels like it's 500lbs.)!! However, I have more and more days of clarity, some days my pain is almost non-existent, my eyes are becoming less sensitive to light and are able to focus a little better. I don't have panick attacks anymore and I only had 2 migraines in the past 2 weeks. Sounds good but I'm still not convinced I'm actually getting better. I still feel awful!! My heart pounds and I'm winded just by walking up the stairs once. I feel so weak that it's hard to sit up straight at all. I'm sooo sick of everyone commenting on how tired I am. Ofcourse, I get to blame it on the baby but If they only knew what I was really going through maybe they would cut me some slack. GRRR!! I simply can't do what everyone else does. I wish I could just tell everyone...but most of them would think I was nuts anyway!!My hubby is being more understanding..he's letting me sleep most nights during the week while he gets up with the baby. I consider this fair considering my condition, my energy-demanding job and he's five years younger than me, heehee!I found a wonderful chiropractor who massages, muscle stimulates, cracks my aching back, put me on a special diet, gave me organic supplements that are targeted at fixing my issues. I am not detoxing because I need to the energy to get through work. I can't feel anymore weaker than I am already. However, I'm eating a ton of veggies and fruit and drinking a ton of water. I don't think it's enough but what else can I do now. I still want to see a neorologist, Patty had recommended a "implant friendly" one in Vegas. Had an appointment with my regular physician to get a referrel but ofcourse my babysitter needed me to pick up the baby early sooo I had to miss it!Soooo much to do and NO TIME or energy to do it. I'm soooo down these days even though I feel a little better than before but I can't help but think that my doc didn't get all my capsule out. I was only in surgery for 1 1/2 hours. He did say my capsule was super thin and easy to get out but how do I know he got it all. Also, he has performed this surgery on others and they were able to get better but he isn't exactly a "implant illness" friendly doctor. Sorry, I don't have any useful info. for all of you. I wish I had more time to focus on my healing and give all you more support! I'm just sooo stinkin tired, tired of all of this and somedays just don't know how I get throught he day. I wake up very depressed everyday. I don't want to move or do anything. I don't remember the last time I actually got excited about something. I have a young and very energetic husband...I almost wish he was old and boring sooo I would feel better about being with him. Last weekend, he introduced me to his new friends he made from work and their girlfriends. They were all in their early 20's...laughing and having a good time. I literally wanted to end it right there. If it wasn't for my newborn, I would probably think about this more often. I feel like I'm a 33 year old women stuck in a 80 year old's body!Wish I could knock on one your doors and just get a hug cuz dang...I need one from someone who understands. All of my friends and family are trying to understand but still constantly try to make plans with me like I have the energy to do something. I know they are just doing what they know best but they don't know how to help at all and I just wish they would ask. Anyway, I know all of you are going through soo much too and I thank god everyday that I have had you support because I don't know what I would've done If I didn't.Thank you!! ------------------------------------

[Guest guest]

Hey Bev! Of course I remember you!! So you're going to Ohio, right? That's wonderful! I can't wait for you to have a doctor that knows all about this. Also, I can't wait for you to share it all with us. I might end up doing the same thing if my symptoms continue to stay the same. Hang in there as well! I'll be thinking about ya!

From: moodynomad@...Date: Sun, 24 Oct 2010 01:24:40 +0000Subject: Re: Wish I could get on here more

wish i could hug you too katie-i'm same as you remember..and i'm 32. almost 5 wks since explant. feel exactly like you do but i don't have a baby and i surely can't do peoples hair in this condition. i get dizzy spells a lot and i get winded easy as well, and the smell of Any chemical brings me to my knees. hang in there honey.bev---------- Original Message ----------From: " " <meastra1977@...> Subject: Wish I could get on here moreDate: Sat, 23 Oct 2010 23:23:33 -0000Hello ladies! I would love to chat with you more!!It's been 2 weeks (I think) since I've been able to actually sit at my computer! UHG! It's awful because I know I would be much better if I only had more time to focus on my healing. I checked my hotmail and I had 250 messages (from this site etc.). I would love to read everything but if I did I wouldn't have time to leave this message. I guess I'm not one of the gals who get better right away =(. I've been explanted for 5 weeks now and I'm not sure what's happening. I do notice that every week I get a little better. Right after explant, I was still getting panick attacks, migrains, confusion, aches and pains, very fatigued but I figured it was from also just having a baby, thinking about going back to work etc. Now, 5 weeks later (been back to work 3 weeks), I am exhausted (my body feels like it's 500lbs.)!! However, I have more and more days of clarity, some days my pain is almost non-existent, my eyes are becoming less sensitive to light and are able to focus a little better. I don't have panick attacks anymore and I only had 2 migraines in the past 2 weeks. Sounds good but I'm still not convinced I'm actually getting better. I still feel awful!! My heart pounds and I'm winded just by walking up the stairs once. I feel so weak that it's hard to sit up straight at all. I'm sooo sick of everyone commenting on how tired I am. Ofcourse, I get to blame it on the baby but If they only knew what I was really going through maybe they would cut me some slack. GRRR!! I simply can't do what everyone else does. I wish I could just tell everyone...but most of them would think I was nuts anyway!!My hubby is being more understanding..he's letting me sleep most nights during the week while he gets up with the baby. I consider this fair considering my condition, my energy-demanding job and he's five years younger than me, heehee!I found a wonderful chiropractor who massages, muscle stimulates, cracks my aching back, put me on a special diet, gave me organic supplements that are targeted at fixing my issues. I am not detoxing because I need to the energy to get through work. I can't feel anymore weaker than I am already. However, I'm eating a ton of veggies and fruit and drinking a ton of water. I don't think it's enough but what else can I do now. I still want to see a neorologist, Patty had recommended a "implant friendly" one in Vegas. Had an appointment with my regular physician to get a referrel but ofcourse my babysitter needed me to pick up the baby early sooo I had to miss it!Soooo much to do and NO TIME or energy to do it. I'm soooo down these days even though I feel a little better than before but I can't help but think that my doc didn't get all my capsule out. I was only in surgery for 1 1/2 hours. He did say my capsule was super thin and easy to get out but how do I know he got it all. Also, he has performed this surgery on others and they were able to get better but he isn't exactly a "implant illness" friendly doctor. Sorry, I don't have any useful info. for all of you. I wish I had more time to focus on my healing and give all you more support! I'm just sooo stinkin tired, tired of all of this and somedays just don't know how I get throught he day. I wake up very depressed everyday. I don't want to move or do anything. I don't remember the last time I actually got excited about something. I have a young and very energetic husband...I almost wish he was old and boring sooo I would feel better about being with him. Last weekend, he introduced me to his new friends he made from work and their girlfriends. They were all in their early 20's...laughing and having a good time. I literally wanted to end it right there. If it wasn't for my newborn, I would probably think about this more often. I feel like I'm a 33 year old women stuck in a 80 year old's body!Wish I could knock on one your doors and just get a hug cuz dang...I need one from someone who understands. All of my friends and family are trying to understand but still constantly try to make plans with me like I have the energy to do something. I know they are just doing what they know best but they don't know how to help at all and I just wish they would ask. Anyway, I know all of you are going through soo much too and I thank god everyday that I have had you support because I don't know what I would've done If I didn't.Thank you!! ------------------------------------