Guest guest Posted October 30, 2002 Report Share Posted October 30, 2002 I have to say, I'm at 13 months out, and what you all are discussing right now is my very worst nightmare. These days I'm feeling sort of cautiously optimistic, hoping that my weight will not start to creep upward again; but I have no " body memory " of this *not* happening, you know? Every single last freakin' time I've *ever* lost a significant amount of weight, it's only been a matter of time before it's started to come back. I hope that won't be the case this time, but I won't know till it's over. My heart breaks for those of you who are struggling with regain right now -- I know that no matter how small a regain it might look like from the outside, it's an emotional trigger, a sign that this situation is not so very different after all. I, for one, went into this surgery only in part because of the promise of massive weight loss, but mainly because of the promise of a better chance of maintaining that weight loss at the end. I don't know right now whether I will be in the " can't maintain " or the " no problem " camp, but either way, believe me, I understand the horror and fear that those of you who are gaining must be feeling right now. I am feeling my way at the moment, working up to higher and higher calorie counts daily, in my search for the " balance point " where I will stop losing, but not gain either. At the moment, my main concern is finding this balance point...I just have to hope that it exists! All of us here are morbidly obese, even though we're currently hiding out in " normal-sized " bodies -- we all know the fear, the sense of being out of control, the terror of feeling our bodies balloon out, of feeling compelled to keep feeding the monsters inside us, as they demand " more, more, more...! " I hope we can all muster up some compassion for those around us who are not in exactly the same places we are -- I'm not a Christian, but I'd certainly join in a chorus of " there, but for the grace of God, go I. " -- <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> PLUTO RISING JUPITER'S DAUGHTER MARS ECLIPSED http://www.infolink.ca/pluto-rising Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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