Weight Gain - Never Achieved Goal

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I'm pretty ashamed at writing this because I feel like a total

failure. But, I'm desperate and need to share my " secret " . I had an

RNY 17 months ago. (Distal). I weighed 313 lbs at the time. I got

down to 203 a few months ago and have put on 15 lbs. It seems that

all of a sudden I can eat just about anything. Candy, chips, etc.

It's like my compulsion to eat is back and raging. I don't get sick

from sugar at all. I now am scared that I've stretched my pouch, and

I'll never reach my goal, let alone take off what I've gained. At

5'8 " tall, I think 160 is a reasonable goal and I'm not gonna make

it. I'm scared because I think it's too late...I'm sick over this.

I did see a nutritionist for my first 6 months. But, I never learned

about the " concentrate " on protein that I've read for so long in this

group. I have no idea if that means follow the Atkins-type plans, or

just stay away from anything " white " (bread, rice, potatoes, etc.) I

haven't a clue as to what I'm doing or what I should be

doing...except to stop getting back to my old eating habits. I don't

understand how I can even tolerate candy and chips, etc. and how I

can pick all day long. Is it possible to get back on track or has my

" window closed " . Is there anyplace where I can find example daily

food plans that can tell me what I should be eating and how much?

I'm really tortured by this failure. I would like to learn that there

may still be " hope " for me, but I've pretty much lost faith. Can

anybody out there relate to what I'm saying? Any suggestions?

Anysites or groups that may be able to give me help? Any suggestions

as to where I may be able to find individual help with a food plan?

Thanks......