to: weight gain-- never acheived goal

November 12, 2002

Dear Sandi

you are helping others by owning your own situation. Good for you. and thank

you for joining in. Alright, what do you want to do? What is reasonable? What

is fantasy?

How much are you willing to put into what is reasonable?

These are the questions I think are the basics. Answer them and we can go

from there.

Many, many, many have never lost down to insurance actuary table weights.

MANY. Some have, but many haven't. No judgment. Some will and are and some

wont or dont want to spend the effort to diet and max out exercise and do

what normies do to take off the last 10-20-=30=40 whatever amount pounds---no

judgement. It is all relative depending on where each person started, what

kind of surgery they had, what they decided to follow afterward. Many tout

this or that for themselves. This is good. But each has to find their own.

My two cent's worth? I do not match insurance actuary tables myself, not by,

what?, about 50 pounds. Never lost near the amount many others have lost.

then had bounceback. Okay, good enough. I do have WAY WAY more health. ThIS

IS what God has granted me. I am so grateful when I look at my blood sugars

everyday and they are still almost three yars post-op now, NORMAL I am not

one bit more blind than I was pre-op (left eye, lost half my sight) I am no

longer going to have my neuropathied legs amputated. I cannot even begin to

say what this means to me, even though my legs are now like flags waving in

the wind, even though I have never been much to look at, even though I am an

old (er) woman, depending on whose looking --grin)---It doesn't matter. I am

HERE. Still. I am allowed to continue my work. Be with my beloveds. BE.

This winter, for the second winter in a row, I put on the SAME winter

clothes. black velvet skirts, black velvet tops, black parka with black fur

trimmed hood. They all fit. Still. For almost three winters in a row, same

clothes fit. Amazing. Wowee zowee (technical term)

black leather baby, no matter what size.

high heel black boots with ankle jewelry

for winter, add black velvet.

that's the ticket

no crying over what coulda been

what IS now is pretty g-damn good.

compared to blindness

compared to being without legs.

compared to being wheeled around

compared to being in a speeding car with no steering mechanism or brakes, get

my drift?

serious.

hang in there.

we can all have it ALL, just not usually ALL at once.But we can have much.

MUCH. What are you willing to put into it. Make your peace with it, whatever

it is. No judgment.

ceep, G-MOM

November 12, 2002

Ceep: Another post from you expressing my feelings. Thanks Fay Bayuk

November 12, 2002

: I am beginning to understand the need for annoying posts on our

sites. We can enjoy Ceep's posts even more so, when you have something to

compare it to. You know how good it feels when you have been in a lot of

pain and then it stops. Fay Bayuk

November 13, 2002

Ceep,

You're already list mom, but will you be my surrogate/adopted/borrowed mother? I

sure miss mine (she died 14 years ago) and you are the wisest, kindest, most

gentle person I " know " . Thanks so much for being here. As annoying as I find

some things in this group, I'm staying because I need your nuggets of wisdom

whether I know it at the time or not.

Love,

Open RNY 09/17/01 Weber

Plastics 07/22/02 Egrari

Medial thighplasty & brachioplasty revision 01/16/03 Egrari

310/132/125 that's 48 pounds below my original goal!

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Subject: to: weight gain-- never acheived goal