Re: Feeling snake bit!

[Guest guest]

Well, the door doesn't close unless the window opens Now it is

time to move on to working for dear old Doc. Your hand was forced.

You WILL make a difference.

I know something about it. Glenn was just pretty much forced to

resign from AOL on Monday. NOT a bad thing, really.

Now we get to go to Mexico and resume mission work and live where

I've wanted to live all along!

Nothing really bad ever happens, if you can make lemons into lemonade.

God bless,

Felicia

> Just when you think things can't get worse....sure enough they

can!

> Some of you may remember when I worked at Household and after 7

> years was demoted (for no reason) and eventually left the job. At

that

> time, I was out of work for several months but finally got a job as

an

> administrative assistant for an insurance company. (and thanks

Louise for

> all the good advice and support at the time!)

> Well, Monday morning the other shoe finally dropped! I arrived

at

> work bright and early to find my boss in already. Now she never

gets in

> much before 10 am. She said she came in early to talk with me. We

went

> into her office and she told me that she was letting me go. That

after

> nearly 2 years in the job she thought it wasn't working out and

that it

> wasn't the job for me. I was blindsided! Hit by a truck! We talked

for 15

> minutes, I foolishly tried to talk her out of it, but her mind was

made up.

> (Actually, she was stiff as a rock and very, very nervous and I

took some

> pleasure in her discomfort)

> So I packed up my stuff and was unceremoniously shown the door.

> I suppose the good news is that she will pay unemployment. I can't

> fight this at all because Nevada is a right to work state and she

doesn't

> really need a reason to let me go.

> I didn't cry....at least not till I got home. Then I pretty much

> spent the day crying on and off. Tuesday was a little better. I

pulled a

> resume together and started half-heartedly reading the want ads.

> I just can't figure out what to do though. I'm so unfocused

and still

> in shock I suppose. I know that after 6 weeks off without pay for

my

> reconstructive surgery our bank account has taken a solid hit.

This surely

> isn't going to help. Can't sleep, can't concentrate (good news-

can't eat!)

> I just keep going through the past week, month, year trying to see

what the

> hell I did wrong? Why after all this time did she decide it wasn't

a good

> fit? I'm wondering if it had anything to do with the time off from

my

> reconstructive surgeries. I have had 3 in 8 months. Even though

she said I

> could take leave....maybe it was an issue. Damn it! I know I

worked hard

> and I know I put in at least 50 hours a week. In 21 months I got a

crappy

> $.50 raise. I asked for performance reviews after 6 months and a

year.

> Never got one.

> And now to add to the stress....we just bought a new car a

month ago,

> and of course the payments are higher and now my income is lower!

DH went

> to the doctor today and he is having rotator cuff surgery on 8/5

and he'll

> be home for 4-6 weeks. Now he'll get 100% pay but he will not get

his shift

> diff, so that will also make a cut in our pay. Money is going to

become a

> major, major issue in our house. And now the weenie is still

taking about

> going to Disneyland in October!!

> And did I mention the toothache I have too?? Oh hell, it's like

> domino's. Things are just falling apart all around me. I'm

helpless to

> stop this chain of events.

> We've been going through some rough times with our marriage the

past few

> months too...what is this going to do with it now? Hubby says I

have OCD

> and am a control freak (I think we're having a power struggle.

I've always

> run things and now he's feeling the need to flex) I still see him

having

> anger problems. If I ask him to get me a drink it becomes a major

issue.

> He has told his psych doctor about his anger and he increased his

effexor.

> But my cheapo hubby won't fill the new script till he completes his

old

> ones. So it will be about 3 weeks till he gets on the new meds. Oh

> hell...I hope they got some for me!!

> Oh my friends....thank goodness for you all. I know you care

and I know

> I can come to you. I can tell you all things I dare not speak out

loud to

> my hubby or family.

> Thanks so much for letting me vent...or melt down...or

whatever...

> Sue