RE: Flagging good girl

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Hey Vicki!

I hear you girl! I am a support group leader and feel that I have not done as

well as many of my participants. I am 5'1 " and range between 150 - 160 lbs.

Although that is not 250lbs - on my little frame it means I am a 12 or 14, not a

6 or 8. I often feel like just dropping the ball, but I am good because I am

setting an example for so many others.

I gave up my protein shakes on the advice of a surgeon - now 3 1/2 mos later my

hair is falling out again (I am almost 3 years post op) so I went back on - 3

shakes a day. What difference it makes. I relax at night with a shake, and I

have totally replaced breakfast with a shake. I have one mid day as well. I

feel better. I went off because I had put on 15 lbs. I did lose some of that

initially, but through the picking I was doing because I wasn't drinking I put

it back. So - I decided that feeling good and keeping my hair was worth 10 lbs.

I have also gone back to weight training 3 days a week. I try to fit in walks

on my off days.

Hang in there - ProBlend 55 Mocha Cappucino is my shake of choice - quite yummy

- I do 1 scoop 3x a day - approximately 90 gms of additional protein a day.

Marjie

" vickiang " vickiang@...> wrote:

>Good morning cohorts,

>

>OK, now I'm starting to get bummed.  Not obsessive, manic or fried.  

>I guess I'm feeling weighted down by the monotony of being a " good

>girl " with no discernable results.

>

>My plateau is stretching out to the third week now.  In fact, I am 2

>pounds up.  I am still going to the gym and have a good physical

>program.  My eating, for the most part, has been good, but I've been

>having problems munching for the past two days.  I know that's a sign

>of flagging motivation.

>

>I consider myself moderately patient with reasonable expectations,

>but I admit, I do seem to need a least a small reward for what seems

>like such a big expenditure of effort.

>

>I woke up yesterday with a feeling of depression...the thoughts

>flitting across my mind " what if I'm stuck at 250?',   " why does

>everyone else have such good results? "   " have I failed? "   " why is my

>food capacity so much larger than others? "   " why is it just as hard

>to watch food intake, calories, portions, and to exercise at the same

>intense level as pre-op? " " what difference did the surgery make

>anyway?' " WILL I ALWAYS BE FAT? "

>

>This is really a struggle.  My old behaviors are trying to take over

>durring my periods of weakness.  I have to literally give myself

>positive pep talks to drive the doubts out of my head.

>

>Luckily I go to a 6am support group followed by a workout at the

>gym.  That seems to release the stress.

>

>And being " good " IS stressful!!!  It's so difficult to be aware all

>of the time, to be vigilant.  My habits are not entrenched nearly

>enough for me to relax and go on auto pilot.  ( " will this ever get

>easier? " )

>

>Still, late in the day is getting hard for me again and I'm really

>having to steel my resolve.

>

>HALT  Hungry, angry, lonely, tired.  I need to remind myslef of that

>when I feel like " relaxing " with a cookie.

>

>All in all, things are going very well.  I don't expect every day to

>be rosy.  I just have to keep on and and have faith that hard work

>will eventually be rewarded.

>

>Well, off to the gym..  Time to get those endorphins pumping and wash

>away my funk.

>

>Happy day, all.

>

>Vicki A

>

>P.S.  I got the acidophilus even though I hadn't taken antibiotics.  

>Also got some over the counter anti-diarhea and will take the 2

>pronged approach starting this morning.

>

>A trainer at the gym sells Optimum Nutrition whey protein and is

>bringing a sample to me this morning.  Maybe, as some of you have

>suggested, the protein will jump start me.

>

>SEE!!! I listen to you guys!!!

>

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