Need Compassionate advice

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Hi everyone. I introduced myself a couple of months ago. And my

first post after that got very " quip- short " responses.

I have my ups and downs like all of you I'm sure. I just can't seem

to get this under control. If you don't really have a heart and

cannot respond from experience, please don't! I am looking for a

sincere response that I can do something with. With that said, I

would like to know if just doing Protein shakes for a few days is

ok. I had a Distal RNY with gallbladder removal in Feb. 2001. I

lost 167 lbs. I had started at 406. I am walking without the cane I

had before surgery, I look a lot better, and I can walk and sit most

anywhere without trouble. BUT...the emotional eating and the

lonliness have gotten to me. I've been in Minnesota for 3 years and

I don't think I've ever been anywhere that I felt so alone. I

basically lived in Los Angeles California for 28 years prior. I just

can't make friends here. And the area I live in is the worst! If

your not catholic or don't have a family and children you might as

well not be here! So given that all of this is happening, and no, I

cannot financially afford to move. I'm in therapy. And I don't

think anything I've heard from therapy or others has worked. I don't

know, maybe I'm just too different. I just can't feel happy about

this surgery. I want so much to eat sugar, like pie and ice cream !

I know I knew this was the way it would be. I know that I still have

50 lbs or more to lose, I'm at 230 now and I'm 5'7. Its just I can't

feel good and I've tried to keep eating meat and chicken and my blood

levels are barely ok. I don't have my test results yet given to me,

I'm going to get them in November. Until then, I was wondering if

anyone would care to be my email buddy and help me get through this.

I am really reaching out here, so if your not sincere, don't bother,

please. I'm not always depressed, but am off and on. I did go off of

the Celexa because it wasn't helping and they wanted to put me on

something stronger. I'm very sensitive to drugs and can't take high

dosages, even with surgery. I'm very spiritual, connected to God and

Goddess. I'm doing all I can through meditation and faith in

God/Goddess to keep going. I thought from reading the posts maybe my

answer is protein drinks. But, I'm not sure. Has anyone experienced

some of this? Also, the worst thing is, I am very attractive and Men

now come on to me that didn't and its very scary. I think I'm having

to deal with a lot at once, I don't think keeping people down with

drugs so they don't " emote " so much that it bothers people, or that

keeps them from feeling anything so everyone around them is happy. I

don't think its right! I am real, I feel, and I have the right to

express who I am. But it seems the medical profession wasn't just

happy controlling my weight, but now they want my emotions too! Yes,

I'm a bit angry, but I'll get over it. I just want to hope that

there is someone else out there who is real! This is not an easy

journey and it sucks doing it alone. Maybe I'm too real for you, but

I'm still putting this out.. for one more time. I hope you will find

it in your heart to hear where I'm coming from. Blessings to you all

in your journey. Thanks, I know this is long.

sunstar