Re: When does the fear go away?

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I'm with you every step of the metaphorical way there. I think the fear is

necessary. If we get to thinking that we are now normies, our comeuppance

may be a bit painful. I don't like being afraid (I'm not quivering with

terror, just wary), but dang it, I have a fatal disease & it WILL get me if

I do not participate in the treatment that is working so well right now.

Know what I mean?

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When does the fear go away?

> Welp... I am past my window of opportunity (I hate that the losing

> finally stops...kind of like the click-click-clickety on Bob Barker's

> show when the wheel spins around and everyone is screaming for it to

> land on the $1.00... will I be the big loser or will I be the one who

> hits .25 and doesn't get to play in the final big game?). Ah, but I

> degress.

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> Anyway, I have done well. I have far exceeded my wildest

> expectations, and I have settled in to being right there in a normal

> BMI range. I have sort of gotten use to the fact that the scale

> isn't going to go any further down unless I change some of my new

> healthy habits to even newer and healthier habits... and I just don't

> wanna.

>

> But creeping in the back of my brain is this terror that I am going

> to gain it all back. I mean... how many times have I lost a

> startling amount of weight only to gain it back and more? Each

> morning I get on the scale feeling shakey about what I might see.

> And each morning the same ole weight meets me. Sometimes it goes up

> a couple of pounds over the same ole weight and sometimes it goes

> down a couple of pounds over the same ole weight. I handle the going

> down great, but I handle the going up with fright and terror.

>

> So when does the fear go away... when do I get to feel like this

> might just stay? I feel like I am in a relationship with a formerly

> cheatin' fella...when's he gonna do it again?

>

> Heavy duty into metaphors tonight... please forgive,

> Okie

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