angry and funny all the time;

[Guest guest]

That's how I survive, being angry and funny. I'm terrified of being

complacent. I've avoide the letters to the editor thing. I worked as a

journalist in Toronto (trained in the Netherlands), prided mysef in being

utterly truthful, completely covered by documentation and never letting

anyone see what my own opinions were. I also made use of my anger and

humour to muckrake around for the next scoundrel needing exposition. But

you are right, maybe I should consider taking a place as an elder with

full rights to opinions. Of course, sometimes there were differences with

editors and producers, fortunately I had my dance career to fall back

on. I've been turfed out of press confenrences and lost my talk show

because the facists at the CRTC (Canadian Radio and Television Commission)

did not like my (get this folks) show on the future of comedy in Canada,

some of my guests were all to happy to explain what to do to whom to get

ahead at the CBC (live to air, what could I have done). My executive

producer said it made for excellent television, but I was fired.

Walked to the bank today, needed to see where exactly the end of my world

was. Apparently the bank was about it. They did drag over a chair, got me

a glass of water. Very sweet. I'll not gripe about excessive bank charges

today. Not satisfied with losing consciousness in a public place, I walked

home as well. Driven to buy art supplies and having lost all confidence in

my friends ever driving me there. I started drawing something yesterday

that was crying for reinterpretation in both watercolour and oil. Got the

art supplies. Then it hit me, did I really want to know how much worse my

painting skills had become. I thought of Matisse after his stroke, reduced

to tearing paper for collages. Although the public thought it marvelous, I

suspect he's rather have had his old skills back. How can being less

possibly be better? I despise patronizing well-intentioned people who

coddle you, they make me kringe. Like dancing, painting or all those God

given expressions of our inner humanity, we do it because we are driven to

do it, not to be complemented and compensated. I will tear paper or use

kiddie crayons or draw with a stick in the sand, because I have to.

Marge, how stupid must people be not to see this coming? Universal health

care could not be made to work in strictly regulated communist

states. Europe keps a safety net of services but by and large made the

wealthy citizens pay in full, prromoting advances in medicine and

attracting the better doctors. I'm offended that Conrad Black and Ted

get government funded health care, let them pay (like they're not

going to private clinics outside the country).

Have some more resting to do, I'm going to be paying for today's heroics

for a while.

Love y'all.

So now out doctors go on strike, oh hell, what else (do I dare

ask?) Suppose we can get refugee status in the States for being refused

proper healthcare, human rights violations?

aletta mes

vancouver, bc Canada

web: http://aletta.0catch.com