RE: [OSSG_Off_track] ok grads.....Im so off track....and know its emotional lol!

[Guest guest]

Donna, I think it is pretty normal. I hear it from almost everyone who

has had surgery (and as an RN I hear it a lot LOL). I had a terrible

time with it after my RNY. We are here if you need us. If it gets too

bad get to the doc OK. Depression can be a real bear to beat.

Amber/FL

[OSSG_Off_track] ok grads.....Im so off track....and know its

emotional lol!

Hi everyone,

Ever since my TT on may 13 2002 I havent been myself. I did do my

vits,

protein, and eat healthy (as usual)...but I feel myself slipping away.

Im

sick of myself! I cant blame my fat! I know that was a shield, I dont

wanna

be looked at as normal so Im sabotaging. Its like unpurpose. I need

support. Im kinda scared! I question myself......do I really wanna

kill

myself? (I mean its not literally) just in action. Why am I such a

negative

sabotage? Why cant I accept me and only wanna punish? I am on meds, I

am

looking for concealing, but I hate the " uuhhuu " shrinks! I can get more

info

on line or on the phone.l I dont hang out w/ friends much only family

and

online groups. When I disappear....somethings wrong. Ive been gone a

month.

So Im reaching out, but ashamed to let it out to the couple hundred

peeps in

the group. Can anyone relate? Or should I cross post on off track.. Ok

I

will. Id appreciate any feedback! I was so addicted to health! Where

did

that go? And why do I want to sleep my life away? Thanks Donna