Confessions of a Food Addict

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In a message dated 9/26/2002 5:17:58 PM Eastern Daylight Time,

kateseidel@... writes:

<< Today, the scale hit 151, and I had a meltdown. This can't happen to me -

I had a DS!! >>

Oh Lord, is there any hope for a proximal RNY?

B

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Spurred on by the courage of my own personal hero, Helene, I thought I'd unload

my guilt on the group to see if it makes me feel any better!

For two years I've listened to people complain about their weight regain, and

thought " well for heaven's sake - you see the scale climbing weekly, why not

just do something about it before it gets to be 25 lbs! " (You may recall that I

was also smug about my calcium and protein intake at one time as well...smugness

is my 8th Deadly Sin!)

So, since my low last December of 138, I watched my weight start to creep. I

was okay with 5 lbs. I was feeling a bit nervous at 7 lbs. Today, the scale

hit 151, and I had a meltdown. This can't happen to me - I had a DS!!

It is no mystery why I am gaining weight; sure it might be affected slightly by

wacky thyroid. But....I am a food addict. No amount of " eating when hungry " or

" giving my body what it wants " is going to work for me, at least not here and

now. Yesterday, in addition to my healthy, normal food and my three protein

shakes I also consumed: 3 hoho's, 1 Chunky candy bar, 4 brownies, 2 bowls of

granola (with sugar on them). This is almost 3000 calories, on top of my normal

food. Nope, no mystery how I gained weight; it's the *why*.

So - today I started again. No matter how much I wish otherwise, I need to be

in a structured food environment. I cannot yet trust my body to be clear about

what it needs, although that day may come. I have to set artificial boundaries

for myself in order to retain some measure of control. So, if it takes a

structured food plan (nope, I will not call it a diet), so be it. I can

honestly say that nothing tastes the way a size 8 feels, and I am adamant that I

will not rise above today's 10/12. So far, I am feeling righteous and empowered

(of course, it's not yet 3:00 which is my trigger time for sugar...).

Stay tuned for the next installment - same bat time, same bat channel.

Kate

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In a message dated 9/26/2002 3:08:08 PM Pacific Standard Time,

apoplexy@... writes:

> What are you doing for your plan? Are you writing things down to stick to

> for the day? The week? How are you going to make it work for yourself?

>

My goal is to keep total calorie count between 1500 - 2000 (that includes 600

cal in protein shakes). Fitday.com helps. What helps even more is putting

the family on notice. My binge time is late afternoon and evening - so I

have asked them to help keep me honest (it'll be good for them too - they

don't need the sweets any more than I do!).

6:36 pm - eating is good; but I am starting to battle the internal " need to

feed " which has nothing at all to do with hunger or satiation. Time to bring

out the tea arsenal...