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Hi to all...

My name is and I have been a member of ossggreatlakes for quite

sometime now and recently came across this one. I am in need of prayers

myself. I will tell you a little bit about myself. I am married to a

wonderful husband Steve and we have been together for almost 12 years. We

have 3 children, one daughter Kelsey who is 10, a son who is 8, and a

son who is 5. I work full-time for United Airlines as a reservation

agent and have been there for 5 years. I had an open RNY on May 7th of 2001,

so it's been about 15months since my surgery. My highest weight was 349lbs

and I was at 329 at pre-op. Today I am down to 193lbs. That part I

obviously can say I am extremely happy about. I have a lot of " head "

problems these days though. It started back in April when I over did it

apparently one day while exercising and strained my stomach muscles, but

anyways, the pain so scared me to death that I stopped eating, not

completely, but to a point where I was barely getting in 300-500 calories a

day. Well, this of course gave me even more problems, I ended up with some

pretty bad reflux due to not having food in my stomach for the acid to attach

itself to, so it was coming up and pretty uncomfortable. Me and my *angel*

from surgery came to the conclusion that I was not eating enough, and low and

behold, once I started eating more, it got much better. Well, that whole

episode lasted a month, but it really did a number on my brain so to speak.

I was terrified of death and I prayed constantly to my Lord and to my

deceased grandparents to NOT take me, that I was not ready to leave my

wonderful husband and babies, as I sit here now, it brings me to tears

because I am in that state again. I seen a psychologist in May and all he

wanted to do was give me Prozac which I totally did not want, so I never went

back. Lately, I have had terrible bubbles, not really gas pains so to speak

because it doesn't really hurt, but it is very annoying. I can't relate it

to any food at all either. This again terrifies me that something is wrong

with me. I never expected to feel this way or be this terrified, but I am.

I also know I have another surgery waiting for me due to a rather large

hernia on the right side of my stomach, and that scares me too. I would love

to have some insight from others who are farther out than me who can help me

to realize that I am not going to die from me having this surgery. Sorry so

long, but thank you all for listening or shall I say reading :-)

R

5-7-01

BTC Ypsilanti, Mi

Dr Poplawski

349 highest

329 pre-op

193 7-31-02