Happy mom's day; still sick; pop mail - Elliot; weighty stuff - Deborah et al

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Happy mother's day. In my dreams the kids give me a box of laxatives that

actually work!

That should tell you how I am doing. Running a slight fever too. Taking

out all the guns again, anything that claims to be laxative. Food has

ceased to stay down. Too sick to go and buy smokes, if that says

anything. Too sick to take out the vaccuum and clean the mess my cats

managed to make.

At least I did walk the dog today (and picked up some choice pebbles and

some starmoss.) I also put my most recent painting on my website. It's ok

to look , it is not a nude, unless you find Borage offensive LOL. I

made a clock for mom, but we are still trying to find a convenient day to

meet (we have a cordial and formal relationship.) I try to keep busy but I

am stuck with the mobility of a potted plant for the moment.

Deborah, I sooo know what you must be feeling. A few months after my heart

attack (1992) my doctor suggested I see a shrink to ease up the

stress. The shrink put me on Ludiomil. I went from 115 lbs to 175 inside

of two months. It is the only time in my entire life my weight was over

125. Of course I stopped the meds and the shrink (it should be illegal to

give a woman pills that will make her fat - does definitely not ease

depression). I was now a fat zombie. I did not eat differently I

exercised every day, the doctor could not adequately explain the weight

gain or my inability to shed the pounds. Then just as inexplicably in 1998

my weight dropped right back down. Everyone thought I had cancer. I've

not gained any weight, it just bounces 5 lbs. in either direction on a

daily basis, but I have my 24 " waist back (for all the good that

does)LOL. Perhaps Pam has some articles, linking MSA and metabolic

changes. Right now I eat more than ever, live the exciting life of a

shut-in and not an ounce of gain. I am a real bitch when it comes to any

doc suggesting medications that promote weight gain. As far as SSRIs go, I

took some for several months (1997) and I lost weight. I think this

illness likes to play games with conventional health rules. I've destryed

all photos of the 'fat' period, but if I come accross any fat photos of me

I'll send it to you.

Elliot, where were you last month when I was madly searching for a free

POP3 account. I finally found one at lycos.nl, but the server is less than

perfect. I just need one that communicates through Eudora. That way I can

compose my emails off-line (using a dialup and a slow computer).

Well, life in BC goes on, anaesthetists are out tomorrow. More hospitals

are closing. At some point they'll just round up the sickies, blame the

stagnant economy on us 'slackers', euthanise us and use us as

landfill. Too bad the government does not come with a money back

guarantee, because right now I could use those thirty odd years' worth to

buy some decent healthcare. Universal, my ass.

aletta mes

vancouver, bc Canada

web: http://aletta.0catch.com