sleep - wake;

March 21, 2002

Very timely all this discussion about sleep and wake. aw mydoctor today in

paart about my inability to sleep (Idon't think I've had a solid hour in

the past week. the benzodiazepines don't seem to work anymore, not even

when my doctor suggested I double them (no diffenrence). I use dexedrine

to wake up in the morning. I will ask about the provigil, but like the new

sleeping med I was supposed to try, it probably isn't covered in which

case, back to square one. If I take nothing, I just go in and out of

sleep, sleppwalking, hallucinating, memory loss - I will be neither awake

nor asleep, day or night makes no diffence at all. If I stop taking meds

while in the awake (dexedrine induced) state I will keep going until I

collapse (usually about 2-3 days) after a couple of hours I'm right back to

being the everready bunny. Teriribly bizarre and I have no name for this,

doctors usually just shrug (with noted disbelief) - that doesn't

help. =jbf= noted sleep deprivation was a very effective torture - I can

concur with that. After a while sleep and death seem synonymous, and I

would gladly take either rather than stay sleep deprived. Most people

confuse this with difficulty sleeping; not the case. I have not felt

sleepy one single time in almost three years now (Good Friday 1999), before

that I average four hours nightly from 1986 or so. In my earlier healthy

state I slept 8-10 hours and was a frequent napper.

I'd really like someone to explain what is going on with me

exactly. Doesn't look like there is a sleep study in my future (too

expensive). Like my doctor I feel much of my symptomology would set itself

right.

aletta mes

vancouver, bc Canada

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