Update

[Guest guest]

Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up on the mail. I missed

you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new folks.

I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up to find a wonderful,

patient husband, great daughter and a life with activity in it. Who

needs food when I am this busy?

Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was fun. I went to

two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock mainly did the song

Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he make me smile!

Sure did.

It was great to go and sit right up front and not be embarassed that I

am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know this is hard to

think about but I am just being honest. Worth has been a real issue

for me since the weight loss and I have started to feel more worthy.

Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just more acceptable.

I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures of him. It was

great. He asked for requests and I hollered out this very random song

he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was shocked. He pointed

at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just for you " . I about

passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a major way. So after

the show my husband and daughter just said " go with your friends and

see about getting your autograph and we will be sleeping in the car. "

How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the tour manager (he

knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and would be down in a bit

to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this is only my second

time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came down the stairs he

came over and hugged my other friends and came over to me and hugged

me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just talked to us for

about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We got more hugs and I

did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at the same time and

said our goodbyes.

I about danced to the car. I woke up the next morning and told my

husband that it was a total " I could have danced all night, kind of

night " . I think you all will know what I mean.

but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from a 80's pop star it

is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I wasn't thinking to

myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I am not going to meet

him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a " normal " person (ok no

comments from people that know me). *grin*

The next day we went to see him again at a festival and it was outside

and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he went on I got caught

up in the show and didn't care that I was in the front row right in

front of him. I was there and having a blast and not the ugly fat

girl. He looked out at the audience and said that we were a mighty

sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my self worth but

still felt great. He looked over at our little foursome of women from

the night before and actually waved at us and even said one of my

friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well, we didn't stay to

meet him cause we had just seen him the day before and we wern't even

sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a great weekend for

me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and wore it the next

day.

My life is different. I am giving myself credit and value.

I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage and dancing along

with the other people and enjoying life. (wow re-reading this I got a

bit misty eyed)

I think I will get up each day and just try to stand at the front of

the stage with the other good people.

I like that.

(wondering what my next adventure will be and glad I have you all

to share it with)