Guest guest Posted June 7, 2005 Report Share Posted June 7, 2005 What a day! I had my 2 week checkup with Dr. Baggs today at 12:00 noon. The appointment was short and sweet. I've lost 17.5 pounds so far. Said my incisions looked good and to help get rid of the nodules underneath I should rub cocoa butter or Vitamin E in to each incision and push really hard (so that it hurts). My blood pressure was 94/52. He thought that was a bit low and thought that I might need to alter my dosage. I take Lopressor for an elevated heart rate. My blood pressure has always been fine but the medicine lowers blood pressure too. Moved me to Stage III officially. Was happy to see that I had my water bottle with me and told me I still couldn't lift over 20 pounds until at least 4 weeks post-op. That was fine with me. That just means I don't get 2 of my daycare kids back for another 2 weeks. Right now, one is enough (along with my own 2 kids). Said he'd see me in July. I'm scheduled for the July 7 6-week group appointment at 2:00. I had to take my fan club with me which consists of my daughter Grace (Who is 4 and is bossier than ever), Jarod (my 7 year old who is an absolute angel), and Lily (my girlfriend's little girl who is 13 months old). The car ride was horrific. Lily doesn't like car rides so she screamed (and I do mean SCREAMED) for over 1/2 of the trip there and back and by the time I got home, I'm sure my blood pressure was up 80 points at least. I will NOT do that again. I'm just glad the day is over. I'm exhausted and ready for bed! That's my update! Tina Dr. Baggs/Richmond LAP RNY 5/24/05 Orientation: 330 Surgery: 294 2 weeks post-op: 276.5 (53.5 pounds total since orientation) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 7, 2005 Report Share Posted June 7, 2005 congratulations on your weight loss. You are one brave woman to take the kids with you. I am impressed! Get some rest and keep up the great work. Cecilia --- Tina ma2two@...> wrote: > What a day! I had my 2 week checkup with Dr. Baggs > today at 12:00 > noon. The appointment was short and sweet. I've lost > 17.5 pounds so > far. Said my incisions looked good and to help get > rid of the > nodules underneath I should rub cocoa butter or > Vitamin E in to each > incision and push really hard (so that it hurts). My > blood pressure > was 94/52. He thought that was a bit low and thought > that I might > need to alter my dosage. I take Lopressor for an > elevated heart > rate. My blood pressure has always been fine but the > medicine lowers > blood pressure too. Moved me to Stage III > officially. Was happy to > see that I had my water bottle with me and told me I > still couldn't > lift over 20 pounds until at least 4 weeks post-op. > That was fine > with me. That just means I don't get 2 of my daycare > kids back for > another 2 weeks. Right now, one is enough (along > with my own 2 > kids). Said he'd see me in July. I'm scheduled for > the July 7 6-week > group appointment at 2:00. > > I had to take my fan club with me which consists of > my daughter > Grace (Who is 4 and is bossier than ever), Jarod (my > 7 year old who > is an absolute angel), and Lily (my girlfriend's > little girl who is > 13 months old). The car ride was horrific. Lily > doesn't like car > rides so she screamed (and I do mean SCREAMED) for > over 1/2 of the > trip there and back and by the time I got home, I'm > sure my blood > pressure was up 80 points at least. I will NOT do > that again. I'm > just glad the day is over. I'm exhausted and ready > for bed! > > That's my update! > > Tina > Dr. Baggs/Richmond > LAP RNY 5/24/05 > Orientation: 330 > Surgery: 294 > 2 weeks post-op: 276.5 (53.5 pounds total since > orientation) > > > > __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 7, 2005 Report Share Posted June 7, 2005 WTG Tina > What a day! I had my 2 week checkup with Dr. Baggs today at 12:00 > noon. The appointment was short and sweet. I've lost 17.5 pounds so > far. Said my incisions looked good and to help get rid of the > nodules underneath I should rub cocoa butter or Vitamin E in to each > incision and push really hard (so that it hurts). My blood pressure > was 94/52. He thought that was a bit low and thought that I might > need to alter my dosage. I take Lopressor for an elevated heart > rate. My blood pressure has always been fine but the medicine lowers > blood pressure too. Moved me to Stage III officially. Was happy to > see that I had my water bottle with me and told me I still couldn't > lift over 20 pounds until at least 4 weeks post-op. That was fine > with me. That just means I don't get 2 of my daycare kids back for > another 2 weeks. Right now, one is enough (along with my own 2 > kids). Said he'd see me in July. I'm scheduled for the July 7 6- week > group appointment at 2:00. > > I had to take my fan club with me which consists of my daughter > Grace (Who is 4 and is bossier than ever), Jarod (my 7 year old who > is an absolute angel), and Lily (my girlfriend's little girl who is > 13 months old). The car ride was horrific. Lily doesn't like car > rides so she screamed (and I do mean SCREAMED) for over 1/2 of the > trip there and back and by the time I got home, I'm sure my blood > pressure was up 80 points at least. I will NOT do that again. I'm > just glad the day is over. I'm exhausted and ready for bed! > > That's my update! > > Tina > Dr. Baggs/Richmond > LAP RNY 5/24/05 > Orientation: 330 > Surgery: 294 > 2 weeks post-op: 276.5 (53.5 pounds total since orientation) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 7, 2005 Report Share Posted June 7, 2005 Hi Tina I loved your fanclub story, i can only imagine ! Good to know your doing so well and that things are in a positive way for you ! Glad your doing so well ! Colleen ps Hope you had or have some good dreams to make up for the hectic part of the day Diane Duenas wrote: WTG Tina> What a day! I had my 2 week checkup with Dr. Baggs today at 12:00 > noon. The appointment was short and sweet. I've lost 17.5 pounds so > far. Said my incisions looked good and to help get rid of the > nodules underneath I should rub cocoa butter or Vitamin E in to each > incision and push really hard (so that it hurts). My blood pressure > was 94/52. He thought that was a bit low and thought that I might > need to alter my dosage. I take Lopressor for an elevated heart > rate. My blood pressure has always been fine but the medicine lowers > blood pressure too. Moved me to Stage III officially. Was happy to > see that I had my water bottle with me and told me I still couldn't > lift over 20 pounds until at least 4 weeks post-op. That was fine > with me. That just means I don't get 2 of my daycare kids back for > another 2 weeks. Right now, one is enough (along with my own 2 > kids). Said he'd see me in July. I'm scheduled for the July 7 6-week > group appointment at 2:00. > > I had to take my fan club with me which consists of my daughter > Grace (Who is 4 and is bossier than ever), Jarod (my 7 year old who > is an absolute angel), and Lily (my girlfriend's little girl who is > 13 months old). The car ride was horrific. Lily doesn't like car > rides so she screamed (and I do mean SCREAMED) for over 1/2 of the > trip there and back and by the time I got home, I'm sure my blood > pressure was up 80 points at least. I will NOT do that again. I'm > just glad the day is over. I'm exhausted and ready for bed!> > That's my update!> > Tina> Dr. Baggs/Richmond> LAP RNY 5/24/05> Orientation: 330> Surgery: 294> 2 weeks post-op: 276.5 (53.5 pounds total since orientation) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 8, 2005 Report Share Posted June 8, 2005 First, I am glad all is well and you are cleared for Stage III but just like you got bored with Stage II, you will get tired of Stage III by the time you are six to eight weeks out. Stage IV comes at 12 weeks so good luck to you :>) I am sorry that you won't be at the post op meeting on July 6th but I am sure that I will see you at the Vacaville Mtg if your schedule permits. Take care and keep up the great work. Remember sip, sip, sip. Pam Marsh --- Tina ma2two@...> wrote: > What a day! I had my 2 week checkup with Dr. Baggs > today at 12:00 > noon. The appointment was short and sweet. I've lost > 17.5 pounds so > far. Said my incisions looked good and to help get > rid of the > nodules underneath I should rub cocoa butter or > Vitamin E in to each > incision and push really hard (so that it hurts). My > blood pressure > was 94/52. He thought that was a bit low and thought > that I might > need to alter my dosage. I take Lopressor for an > elevated heart > rate. My blood pressure has always been fine but the > medicine lowers > blood pressure too. Moved me to Stage III > officially. Was happy to > see that I had my water bottle with me and told me I > still couldn't > lift over 20 pounds until at least 4 weeks post-op. > That was fine > with me. That just means I don't get 2 of my daycare > kids back for > another 2 weeks. Right now, one is enough (along > with my own 2 > kids). Said he'd see me in July. I'm scheduled for > the July 7 6-week > group appointment at 2:00. > > I had to take my fan club with me which consists of > my daughter > Grace (Who is 4 and is bossier than ever), Jarod (my > 7 year old who > is an absolute angel), and Lily (my girlfriend's > little girl who is > 13 months old). The car ride was horrific. Lily > doesn't like car > rides so she screamed (and I do mean SCREAMED) for > over 1/2 of the > trip there and back and by the time I got home, I'm > sure my blood > pressure was up 80 points at least. I will NOT do > that again. I'm > just glad the day is over. I'm exhausted and ready > for bed! > > That's my update! > > Tina > Dr. Baggs/Richmond > LAP RNY 5/24/05 > Orientation: 330 > Surgery: 294 > 2 weeks post-op: 276.5 (53.5 pounds total since > orientation) > > > > __________________________________ Discover Yahoo! Use Yahoo! to plan a weekend, have fun online and more. Check it out! http://discover.yahoo.com/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 8, 2005 Report Share Posted June 8, 2005 Colleen -- Good dreams? I had bizarre dreams! I feel much better this morning though and I didn't get any attitude from my girlfriend when she dropped off Lily. Last night when she called after her daughter had been picked up, alls I got was attitude and anger from her when I politely told her I couldn't/wouldn't ever take Lily with me to Richmond again. Today is a new day! We aren't going anywhere today so Lily should be happy as a clam! Tina > > What a day! I had my 2 week checkup with Dr. Baggs today at 12:00 > > noon. The appointment was short and sweet. I've lost 17.5 pounds > so > > far. Said my incisions looked good and to help get rid of the > > nodules underneath I should rub cocoa butter or Vitamin E in to > each > > incision and push really hard (so that it hurts). My blood > pressure > > was 94/52. He thought that was a bit low and thought that I might > > need to alter my dosage. I take Lopressor for an elevated heart > > rate. My blood pressure has always been fine but the medicine > lowers > > blood pressure too. Moved me to Stage III officially. Was happy to > > see that I had my water bottle with me and told me I still > couldn't > > lift over 20 pounds until at least 4 weeks post-op. That was fine > > with me. That just means I don't get 2 of my daycare kids back for > > another 2 weeks. Right now, one is enough (along with my own 2 > > kids). Said he'd see me in July. I'm scheduled for the July 7 6- > week > > group appointment at 2:00. > > > > I had to take my fan club with me which consists of my daughter > > Grace (Who is 4 and is bossier than ever), Jarod (my 7 year old > who > > is an absolute angel), and Lily (my girlfriend's little girl who > is > > 13 months old). The car ride was horrific. Lily doesn't like car > > rides so she screamed (and I do mean SCREAMED) for over 1/2 of the > > trip there and back and by the time I got home, I'm sure my blood > > pressure was up 80 points at least. I will NOT do that again. I'm > > just glad the day is over. I'm exhausted and ready for bed! > > > > That's my update! > > > > Tina > > Dr. Baggs/Richmond > > LAP RNY 5/24/05 > > Orientation: 330 > > Surgery: 294 > > 2 weeks post-op: 276.5 (53.5 pounds total since orientation) > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 8, 2005 Report Share Posted June 8, 2005 Tina that is great news that your appointment went so well. Great weight loss too. Try to relax when you get the chance. Great Job RoseTina wrote: What a day! I had my 2 week checkup with Dr. Baggs today at 12:00 noon. The appointment was short and sweet. I've lost 17.5 pounds so far. Said my incisions looked good and to help get rid of the nodules underneath I should rub cocoa butter or Vitamin E in to each incision and push really hard (so that it hurts). My blood pressure was 94/52. He thought that was a bit low and thought that I might need to alter my dosage. I take Lopressor for an elevated heart rate. My blood pressure has always been fine but the medicine lowers blood pressure too. Moved me to Stage III officially. Was happy to see that I had my water bottle with me and told me I still couldn't lift over 20 pounds until at least 4 weeks post-op. That was fine with me. That just means I don't get 2 of my daycare kids back for another 2 weeks. Right now, one is enough (along with my own 2 kids). Said he'd see me in July. I'm scheduled for the July 7 6-week group appointment at 2:00. I had to take my fan club with me which consists of my daughter Grace (Who is 4 and is bossier than ever), Jarod (my 7 year old who is an absolute angel), and Lily (my girlfriend's little girl who is 13 months old). The car ride was horrific. Lily doesn't like car rides so she screamed (and I do mean SCREAMED) for over 1/2 of the trip there and back and by the time I got home, I'm sure my blood pressure was up 80 points at least. I will NOT do that again. I'm just glad the day is over. I'm exhausted and ready for bed!That's my update!TinaDr. Baggs/RichmondLAP RNY 5/24/05Orientation: 330Surgery: 2942 weeks post-op: 276.5 (53.5 pounds total since orientation) Discover Yahoo! Get on-the-go sports scores, stock quotes, news more. Check it out! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 8, 2005 Report Share Posted June 8, 2005 You are more than sweet . Thank you for this. Such kind words. > > Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up on the mail. I > missed > > you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new folks. > > > > I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up to find a > wonderful, > > patient husband, great daughter and a life with activity in it. > Who > > needs food when I am this busy? > > > > Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was fun. I went > to > > two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock mainly did the > song > > Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he make me > smile! > > Sure did. > > > > It was great to go and sit right up front and not be embarassed > that I > > am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know this is hard > to > > think about but I am just being honest. Worth has been a real > issue > > for me since the weight loss and I have started to feel more > worthy. > > Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just more > acceptable. > > I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures of him. It > was > > great. He asked for requests and I hollered out this very random > song > > he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was shocked. He > pointed > > at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just for you " . I about > > passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a major way. So > after > > the show my husband and daughter just said " go with your friends > and > > see about getting your autograph and we will be sleeping in the > car. " > > How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the tour manager (he > > knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and would be down in a > bit > > to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this is only my > second > > time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came down the stairs > he > > came over and hugged my other friends and came over to me and > hugged > > me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just talked to us > for > > about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We got more hugs > and I > > did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at the same time and > > said our goodbyes. > > > > I about danced to the car. I woke up the next morning and told my > > husband that it was a total " I could have danced all night, kind of > > night " . I think you all will know what I mean. > > > > but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from a 80's pop > star it > > is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I wasn't thinking > to > > myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I am not going to > meet > > him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a " normal " person (ok no > > comments from people that know me). *grin* > > > > The next day we went to see him again at a festival and it was > outside > > and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he went on I got > caught > > up in the show and didn't care that I was in the front row right in > > front of him. I was there and having a blast and not the ugly fat > > girl. He looked out at the audience and said that we were a mighty > > sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my self worth but > > still felt great. He looked over at our little foursome of women > from > > the night before and actually waved at us and even said one of my > > friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well, we didn't stay > to > > meet him cause we had just seen him the day before and we wern't > even > > sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a great weekend for > > me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and wore it the next > > day. > > > > My life is different. I am giving myself credit and value. > > > > I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage and dancing along > > with the other people and enjoying life. (wow re-reading this I > got a > > bit misty eyed) > > > > I think I will get up each day and just try to stand at the front > of > > the stage with the other good people. > > > > I like that. > > > > (wondering what my next adventure will be and glad I have you > all > > to share it with) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 8, 2005 Report Share Posted June 8, 2005 hu hu, she said " little " . Such a good feeling. Everyone keeps saying how narrow I am getting. How cool is that? Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up on the mail. I missed > you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new folks. > > I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up to find a wonderful, > patient husband, great daughter and a life with activity in it. Who > needs food when I am this busy? > > Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was fun. I went to > two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock mainly did the song > Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he make me smile! > Sure did. > > It was great to go and sit right up front and not be embarassed that I > am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know this is hard to > think about but I am just being honest. Worth has been a real issue > for me since the weight loss and I have started to feel more worthy. > Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just more acceptable. > I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures of him. It was > great. He asked for requests and I hollered out this very random song > he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was shocked. He pointed > at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just for you " . I about > passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a major way. So after > the show my husband and daughter just said " go with your friends and > see about getting your autograph and we will be sleeping in the car. " > How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the tour manager (he > knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and would be down in a bit > to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this is only my second > time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came down the stairs he > came over and hugged my other friends and came over to me and hugged > me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just talked to us for > about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We got more hugs and I > did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at the same time and > said our goodbyes. > > I about danced to the car. I woke up the next morning and told my > husband that it was a total " I could have danced all night, kind of > night " . I think you all will know what I mean. > > but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from a 80's pop star it > is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I wasn't thinking to > myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I am not going to meet > him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a " normal " person (ok no > comments from people that know me). *grin* > > The next day we went to see him again at a festival and it was outside > and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he went on I got caught > up in the show and didn't care that I was in the front row right in > front of him. I was there and having a blast and not the ugly fat > girl. He looked out at the audience and said that we were a mighty > sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my self worth but > still felt great. He looked over at our little foursome of women from > the night before and actually waved at us and even said one of my > friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well, we didn't stay to > meet him cause we had just seen him the day before and we wern't even > sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a great weekend for > me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and wore it the next > day. > > My life is different. I am giving myself credit and value. > > I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage and dancing along > with the other people and enjoying life. (wow re-reading this I got a > bit misty eyed) > > I think I will get up each day and just try to stand at the front of > the stage with the other good people. > > I like that. > > (wondering what my next adventure will be and glad I have you all > to share it with) > > > > > > --------------------------------- > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 8, 2005 Report Share Posted June 8, 2005 Pam you sweet sweet woman. I love you dearly. See you soon, maybe! Hmmm what could I possibly mean? > > > > > > > Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up > > on > > > > the mail. I missed > > > > you all while I was away. Welcome to all the > > new > > > > folks. > > > > > > > > I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken > > up > > > > to find a wonderful, > > > > patient husband, great daughter and a life with > > > > activity in it. Who > > > > needs food when I am this busy? > > > > > > > > Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It > > was > > > > fun. I went to > > > > two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's > > rock > > > > mainly did the song > > > > Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh > > yes, he > > > > make me smile! > > > > Sure did. > > > > > > > > It was great to go and sit right up front and > > not be > > > > embarassed that I > > > > am an embarassement for him to even look at. I > > know > > > > this is hard to > > > > think about but I am just being honest. Worth > > has > > > > been a real issue > > > > for me since the weight loss and I have started > > to > > > > feel more worthy. > > > > Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am > > just > > > > more acceptable. > > > > I sat there and he even smiled at me taking > > pictures > > > > of him. It was > > > > great. He asked for requests and I hollered out > > > > this very random song > > > > he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I > > was > > > > shocked. He pointed > > > > at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just > > for > > > > you " . I about > > > > passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a > > > > major way. So after > > > > the show my husband and daughter just said " go > > with > > > > your friends and > > > > see about getting your autograph and we will be > > > > sleeping in the car. " > > > > How good is he? So my friends and I talked to > > the > > > > tour manager (he > > > > knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and > > > > would be down in a bit > > > > to talk to us. I was a little nervous because > > this > > > > is only my second > > > > time meeting him. But not too bad. When he > > came > > > > down the stairs he > > > > came over and hugged my other friends and came > > over > > > > to me and hugged > > > > me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he > > just > > > > talked to us for > > > > about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. > > We > > > > got more hugs and I > > > > did get the autograph I wanted and we all left > > at > > > > the same time and > > > > said our goodbyes. > > > > > > > > I about danced to the car. I woke up the next > > > > morning and told my > > > > husband that it was a total " I could have danced > > all > > > > night, kind of > > > > night " . I think you all will know what I mean. > > > > > > > > > > but this story isn't about bragging about a hug > > from > > > > a 80's pop star it > > > > is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. > > I > > > > wasn't thinking to > > > > myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I > > am > > > > not going to meet > > > > him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a > > " normal " > > > > person (ok no > > > > comments from people that know me). *grin* > > > > > > > > The next day we went to see him again at a > > festival > > > > and it was outside > > > > and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he > > > > went on I got caught > > > > up in the show and didn't care that I was in the > > > > front row right in > > > > front of him. I was there and having a blast > > and > > > > not the ugly fat > > > > girl. He looked out at the audience and said > > that > > > > we were a mighty > > > > sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for > > my > > > > self worth but > > > > still felt great. He looked over at our little > > > > foursome of women from > > > > the night before and actually waved at us and > > even > > > > said one of my > > > > friends names in a song. How cool is that? > > Well, > > > > we didn't stay to > > > > meet him cause we had just seen him the day > > before > > > > and we wern't even > > > > sure he would come out to see anyone. But what > > a > > > > great weekend for > > > > me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large > > and > > > > wore it the next > > > > day. > > > > > > > > My life is different. I am giving myself credit > > and > > > > value. > > > > > > > > I am worthy of standing at the front of the > > stage > > > > and dancing along > > > > with the other people and enjoying life. (wow > > > > re-reading this I got a > > > > bit misty eyed) > > > > > > > > I think I will get up each day and just try to > > stand > > > > at the front of > > > > the stage with the other good people. > > > > > > > > I like that. > > > > > > > > (wondering what my next adventure will be > > and > > > > glad I have you all > > > > to share it with) > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > __________________________________ > > > Discover Yahoo! > > > Find restaurants, movies, travel and more fun for > > the weekend. > > Check it out! > > > http://discover.yahoo.com/weekend.html > > > > > > > === message truncated === > > > __________________________________________________ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2005 Report Share Posted June 9, 2005 Yes, I did notice you were getting more little and narrow. i can just about fit you into my pocket, now....Robynnmusil321 wrote: hu hu, she said "little". Such a good feeling. Everyone keeps saying how narrow I am getting. How cool is that? Hello gang. I am doing pretty good keeping up on the mail. I missed > you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new folks. > > I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up to find a wonderful, > patient husband, great daughter and a life with activity in it. Who > needs food when I am this busy? > > Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was fun. I went to > two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock mainly did the song > Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he make me smile! > Sure did. > > It was great to go and sit right up front and not be embarassed that I > am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know this is hard to > think about but I am just being honest. Worth has been a real issue > for me since the weight loss and I have started to feel more worthy. > Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just more acceptable. > I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures of him. It was > great. He asked for requests and I hollered out this very random song > he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was shocked. He pointed > at me and said, "ok, we are going to try it just for you". I about > passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a major way. So after > the show my husband and daughter just said "go with your friends and > see about getting your autograph and we will be sleeping in the car." > How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the tour manager (he > knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and would be down in a bit > to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this is only my second > time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came down the stairs he > came over and hugged my other friends and came over to me and hugged > me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just talked to us for > about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We got more hugs and I > did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at the same time and > said our goodbyes. > > I about danced to the car. I woke up the next morning and told my > husband that it was a total "I could have danced all night, kind of > night". I think you all will know what I mean. > > but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from a 80's pop star it > is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I wasn't thinking to > myself "poor guy has to hug the fat girl" or "I am not going to meet > him cause I am too fat." I know he saw a "normal" person (ok no > comments from people that know me). *grin*> > The next day we went to see him again at a festival and it was outside > and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he went on I got caught > up in the show and didn't care that I was in the front row right in > front of him. I was there and having a blast and not the ugly fat > girl. He looked out at the audience and said that we were a mighty > sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my self worth but > still felt great. He looked over at our little foursome of women from > the night before and actually waved at us and even said one of my > friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well, we didn't stay to > meet him cause we had just seen him the day before and we wern't even > sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a great weekend for > me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and wore it the next > day. > > My life is different. I am giving myself credit and value. > > I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage and dancing along > with the other people and enjoying life. (wow re-reading this I got a > bit misty eyed)> > I think I will get up each day and just try to stand at the front of > the stage with the other good people. > > I like that. > > (wondering what my next adventure will be and glad I have you all > to share it with)> > > > > > ---------------------------------> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2005 Report Share Posted June 9, 2005 that must be a mighty big pocket to fit my 178 frame. Hello gang. I am doing pretty > good keeping up on the mail. I missed > > you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new folks. > > > > I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up to find a > wonderful, > > patient husband, great daughter and a life with activity in it. > Who > > needs food when I am this busy? > > > > Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was fun. I went > to > > two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock mainly did the > song > > Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he make me > smile! > > Sure did. > > > > It was great to go and sit right up front and not be embarassed > that I > > am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know this is hard > to > > think about but I am just being honest. Worth has been a real > issue > > for me since the weight loss and I have started to feel more > worthy. > > Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just more > acceptable. > > I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures of him. It > was > > great. He asked for requests and I hollered out this very random > song > > he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was shocked. He > pointed > > at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just for you " . I about > > passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a major way. So > after > > the show my husband and daughter just said " go with your friends > and > > see about getting your autograph and we will be sleeping in the > car. " > > How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the tour manager (he > > knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and would be down in a > bit > > to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this is only my > second > > time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came down the stairs > he > > came over and hugged my other friends and came over to me and > hugged > > me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just talked to us > for > > about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We got more hugs > and I > > did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at the same time and > > said our goodbyes. > > > > I about danced to the car. I woke up the next morning and told my > > husband that it was a total " I could have danced all night, kind of > > night " . I think you all will know what I mean. > > > > but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from a 80's pop > star it > > is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I wasn't thinking > to > > myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I am not going to > meet > > him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a " normal " person (ok no > > comments from people that know me). *grin* > > > > The next day we went to see him again at a festival and it was > outside > > and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he went on I got > caught > > up in the show and didn't care that I was in the front row right in > > front of him. I was there and having a blast and not the ugly fat > > girl. He looked out at the audience and said that we were a mighty > > sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my self worth but > > still felt great. He looked over at our little foursome of women > from > > the night before and actually waved at us and even said one of my > > friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well, we didn't stay > to > > meet him cause we had just seen him the day before and we wern't > even > > sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a great weekend for > > me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and wore it the next > > day. > > > > My life is different. I am giving myself credit and value. > > > > I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage and dancing along > > with the other people and enjoying life. (wow re-reading this I > got a > > bit misty eyed) > > > > I think I will get up each day and just try to stand at the front > of > > the stage with the other good people. > > > > I like that. > > > > (wondering what my next adventure will be and glad I have you > all > > to share it with) > > > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2005 Report Share Posted June 9, 2005 that must be a mighty big pocket to fit my 178 frame. Hello gang. I am doing pretty > good keeping up on the mail. I missed > > you all while I was away. Welcome to all the new folks. > > > > I feel like I have been sleeping and have woken up to find a > wonderful, > > patient husband, great daughter and a life with activity in it. > Who > > needs food when I am this busy? > > > > Last weekend we drove to LA for the weekend. It was fun. I went > to > > two concerts by the same guy ( Waite--80's rock mainly did the > song > > Missing you and When I see you Smile) and oh yes, he make me > smile! > > Sure did. > > > > It was great to go and sit right up front and not be embarassed > that I > > am an embarassement for him to even look at. I know this is hard > to > > think about but I am just being honest. Worth has been a real > issue > > for me since the weight loss and I have started to feel more > worthy. > > Not in a vain way at all but in a way that I am just more > acceptable. > > I sat there and he even smiled at me taking pictures of him. It > was > > great. He asked for requests and I hollered out this very random > song > > he has NEVER done live and he did the song. I was shocked. He > pointed > > at me and said, " ok, we are going to try it just for you " . I about > > passed out cause well I swoon over this guy in a major way. So > after > > the show my husband and daughter just said " go with your friends > and > > see about getting your autograph and we will be sleeping in the > car. " > > How good is he? So my friends and I talked to the tour manager (he > > knows all 3 of us) and he said to wait and would be down in a > bit > > to talk to us. I was a little nervous because this is only my > second > > time meeting him. But not too bad. When he came down the stairs > he > > came over and hugged my other friends and came over to me and > hugged > > me. I was floored. Talk about swoon. Then he just talked to us > for > > about 20 minutes. What a great and sweet guy. We got more hugs > and I > > did get the autograph I wanted and we all left at the same time and > > said our goodbyes. > > > > I about danced to the car. I woke up the next morning and told my > > husband that it was a total " I could have danced all night, kind of > > night " . I think you all will know what I mean. > > > > but this story isn't about bragging about a hug from a 80's pop > star it > > is about the fact that I was worthy of that hug. I wasn't thinking > to > > myself " poor guy has to hug the fat girl " or " I am not going to > meet > > him cause I am too fat. " I know he saw a " normal " person (ok no > > comments from people that know me). *grin* > > > > The next day we went to see him again at a festival and it was > outside > > and a blast except I was miserable hot. Once he went on I got > caught > > up in the show and didn't care that I was in the front row right in > > front of him. I was there and having a blast and not the ugly fat > > girl. He looked out at the audience and said that we were a mighty > > sexy audience. Ok, maybe that is pushing it for my self worth but > > still felt great. He looked over at our little foursome of women > from > > the night before and actually waved at us and even said one of my > > friends names in a song. How cool is that? Well, we didn't stay > to > > meet him cause we had just seen him the day before and we wern't > even > > sure he would come out to see anyone. But what a great weekend for > > me. Oh and I did buy a tshirt in a size Large and wore it the next > > day. > > > > My life is different. I am giving myself credit and value. > > > > I am worthy of standing at the front of the stage and dancing along > > with the other people and enjoying life. (wow re-reading this I > got a > > bit misty eyed) > > > > I think I will get up each day and just try to stand at the front > of > > the stage with the other good people. > > > > I like that. > > > > (wondering what my next adventure will be and glad I have you > all > > to share it with) > > > > > > > > > > > > --------------------------------- > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 12, 2006 Report Share Posted June 12, 2006 Terri, I'm so sorry that everything is so wrong right now. It is awful and so frustrating when you run into an idiot. (Been there, done that). Do you have regular insurance that lists providers? If you do, contact the insurance company and let them know what he is doing. Alot of times they can help you find someone that works. I know it's hard to do, but hang in there, you got (2) good guys in your corner; and this will get better. You most definitely will be in my thoughts and prayers. If there is anything I can do to help, let me know///Conniemosaicgirl1 wrote: Hello Everyone!I just wanted you all to know that my niece went home yesterday. Thanksto all for the prayers and good thoughts and wishes. She will need sometherapy for awhile on an outpatient basis but it looks like her headinjury may completely heal with no lasting affects.To all of you that I have missed I hope everything is ok. I know somepeople have started infusions, new meds, etc. and I will pray thosethings work well for you. I miss the comaradarie and hope to be back ona regular schedule now. I did go to the chat room and register so I canchat with yall in real time.I think it was Connie who asked about my holding pattern so here goes. My PCP is now blowing me off. I am not getting schedule for the biopsyof the lymph node on my chest wall under the collar bone. My urologistwrote him a letter about finding the cause of my neurogenic bladder (youcannot fake that) and he blew that off. I was having problems with mybladder medication and the PCP gave me something new which made me verysick. I am back on the old stuff and if I walk around I pee. Woo hoo. I have called the urologist for something else but he is on vacation allweek. I have been very depressed. I did try to change PCP's but theone I wanted to go to cannot take any more patients at this time.I am just dragging bottom physically and emotionally and spiritually. Idon't know what the answer is going to be for me; I am at the mercy ofthe PCP. He thinks it is all in my head. My urologist told me thatdoctors say that when they can't figure out what is wrong. I have askedthe PCP to call my therapist and he still has not. I have called hisoffice twice this week and he still has not done it. My therapist hastreated people that have Somatoform Disorder (your symptoms are all inyour head) and I am not that type of person. He has been a God send;otherwise I would be ready to off myself.I want to go back to work, have my life back, visit family and friendswhen I want too.....I don't want this shit. Please, please send me yourgood thoughts and prayers. I don't know what I am going to do....I justcan't live like this anymore. I need a doctor who is going to be myadvocate and one I can trust.Love to all of you and don't worry, I am not going to hurt myself. Letme know if there are any new chats coming up during the day - I am amorning person and more alert at that time.Terri G. __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 12, 2006 Report Share Posted June 12, 2006 Terri, I'm so sorry that everything is so wrong right now. It is awful and so frustrating when you run into an idiot. (Been there, done that). Do you have regular insurance that lists providers? If you do, contact the insurance company and let them know what he is doing. Alot of times they can help you find someone that works. I know it's hard to do, but hang in there, you got (2) good guys in your corner; and this will get better. You most definitely will be in my thoughts and prayers. If there is anything I can do to help, let me know///Conniemosaicgirl1 wrote: Hello Everyone!I just wanted you all to know that my niece went home yesterday. Thanksto all for the prayers and good thoughts and wishes. She will need sometherapy for awhile on an outpatient basis but it looks like her headinjury may completely heal with no lasting affects.To all of you that I have missed I hope everything is ok. I know somepeople have started infusions, new meds, etc. and I will pray thosethings work well for you. I miss the comaradarie and hope to be back ona regular schedule now. I did go to the chat room and register so I canchat with yall in real time.I think it was Connie who asked about my holding pattern so here goes. My PCP is now blowing me off. I am not getting schedule for the biopsyof the lymph node on my chest wall under the collar bone. My urologistwrote him a letter about finding the cause of my neurogenic bladder (youcannot fake that) and he blew that off. I was having problems with mybladder medication and the PCP gave me something new which made me verysick. I am back on the old stuff and if I walk around I pee. Woo hoo. I have called the urologist for something else but he is on vacation allweek. I have been very depressed. I did try to change PCP's but theone I wanted to go to cannot take any more patients at this time.I am just dragging bottom physically and emotionally and spiritually. Idon't know what the answer is going to be for me; I am at the mercy ofthe PCP. He thinks it is all in my head. My urologist told me thatdoctors say that when they can't figure out what is wrong. I have askedthe PCP to call my therapist and he still has not. I have called hisoffice twice this week and he still has not done it. My therapist hastreated people that have Somatoform Disorder (your symptoms are all inyour head) and I am not that type of person. He has been a God send;otherwise I would be ready to off myself.I want to go back to work, have my life back, visit family and friendswhen I want too.....I don't want this shit. Please, please send me yourgood thoughts and prayers. I don't know what I am going to do....I justcan't live like this anymore. I need a doctor who is going to be myadvocate and one I can trust.Love to all of you and don't worry, I am not going to hurt myself. Letme know if there are any new chats coming up during the day - I am amorning person and more alert at that time.Terri G. __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 12, 2006 Report Share Posted June 12, 2006 Terri, I'm so sorry that everything is so wrong right now. It is awful and so frustrating when you run into an idiot. (Been there, done that). Do you have regular insurance that lists providers? If you do, contact the insurance company and let them know what he is doing. Alot of times they can help you find someone that works. I know it's hard to do, but hang in there, you got (2) good guys in your corner; and this will get better. You most definitely will be in my thoughts and prayers. If there is anything I can do to help, let me know///Conniemosaicgirl1 wrote: Hello Everyone!I just wanted you all to know that my niece went home yesterday. Thanksto all for the prayers and good thoughts and wishes. She will need sometherapy for awhile on an outpatient basis but it looks like her headinjury may completely heal with no lasting affects.To all of you that I have missed I hope everything is ok. I know somepeople have started infusions, new meds, etc. and I will pray thosethings work well for you. I miss the comaradarie and hope to be back ona regular schedule now. I did go to the chat room and register so I canchat with yall in real time.I think it was Connie who asked about my holding pattern so here goes. My PCP is now blowing me off. I am not getting schedule for the biopsyof the lymph node on my chest wall under the collar bone. My urologistwrote him a letter about finding the cause of my neurogenic bladder (youcannot fake that) and he blew that off. I was having problems with mybladder medication and the PCP gave me something new which made me verysick. I am back on the old stuff and if I walk around I pee. Woo hoo. I have called the urologist for something else but he is on vacation allweek. I have been very depressed. I did try to change PCP's but theone I wanted to go to cannot take any more patients at this time.I am just dragging bottom physically and emotionally and spiritually. Idon't know what the answer is going to be for me; I am at the mercy ofthe PCP. He thinks it is all in my head. My urologist told me thatdoctors say that when they can't figure out what is wrong. I have askedthe PCP to call my therapist and he still has not. I have called hisoffice twice this week and he still has not done it. My therapist hastreated people that have Somatoform Disorder (your symptoms are all inyour head) and I am not that type of person. He has been a God send;otherwise I would be ready to off myself.I want to go back to work, have my life back, visit family and friendswhen I want too.....I don't want this shit. Please, please send me yourgood thoughts and prayers. I don't know what I am going to do....I justcan't live like this anymore. I need a doctor who is going to be myadvocate and one I can trust.Love to all of you and don't worry, I am not going to hurt myself. Letme know if there are any new chats coming up during the day - I am amorning person and more alert at that time.Terri G. __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 13, 2006 Report Share Posted June 13, 2006 Connie, I tried to change PCP's but the only one I would go to locally isn't taking anymore patients right now. So, on that note I am bugging the crap out of my PCP. Either he will deal with me or release me as a patient. I have Fed BC insurance but if I called them, they wouldn't care. They would tell me to change. Well, Joyce Meyer is on so I am gonna go. Thanks for everything. Terri > > Hello Everyone! > > I just wanted you all to know that my niece went home yesterday. Thanks > to all for the prayers and good thoughts and wishes. She will need some > therapy for awhile on an outpatient basis but it looks like her head > injury may completely heal with no lasting affects. > > To all of you that I have missed I hope everything is ok. I know some > people have started infusions, new meds, etc. and I will pray those > things work well for you. I miss the comaradarie and hope to be back on > a regular schedule now. I did go to the chat room and register so I can > chat with yall in real time. > > I think it was Connie who asked about my holding pattern so here goes. > My PCP is now blowing me off. I am not getting schedule for the biopsy > of the lymph node on my chest wall under the collar bone. My urologist > wrote him a letter about finding the cause of my neurogenic bladder (you > cannot fake that) and he blew that off. I was having problems with my > bladder medication and the PCP gave me something new which made me very > sick. I am back on the old stuff and if I walk around I pee. Woo hoo. > I have called the urologist for something else but he is on vacation all > week. I have been very depressed. I did try to change PCP's but the > one I wanted to go to cannot take any more patients at this time. > > I am just dragging bottom physically and emotionally and spiritually. I > don't know what the answer is going to be for me; I am at the mercy of > the PCP. He thinks it is all in my head. My urologist told me that > doctors say that when they can't figure out what is wrong. I have asked > the PCP to call my therapist and he still has not. I have called his > office twice this week and he still has not done it. My therapist has > treated people that have Somatoform Disorder (your symptoms are all in > your head) and I am not that type of person. He has been a God send; > otherwise I would be ready to off myself. > > I want to go back to work, have my life back, visit family and friends > when I want too.....I don't want this shit. Please, please send me your > good thoughts and prayers. I don't know what I am going to do....I just > can't live like this anymore. I need a doctor who is going to be my > advocate and one I can trust. > > Love to all of you and don't worry, I am not going to hurt myself. Let > me know if there are any new chats coming up during the day - I am a > morning person and more alert at that time. > > Terri G. > > > > > > __________________________________________________ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 13, 2006 Report Share Posted June 13, 2006 Connie, I tried to change PCP's but the only one I would go to locally isn't taking anymore patients right now. So, on that note I am bugging the crap out of my PCP. Either he will deal with me or release me as a patient. I have Fed BC insurance but if I called them, they wouldn't care. They would tell me to change. Well, Joyce Meyer is on so I am gonna go. Thanks for everything. Terri > > Hello Everyone! > > I just wanted you all to know that my niece went home yesterday. Thanks > to all for the prayers and good thoughts and wishes. She will need some > therapy for awhile on an outpatient basis but it looks like her head > injury may completely heal with no lasting affects. > > To all of you that I have missed I hope everything is ok. I know some > people have started infusions, new meds, etc. and I will pray those > things work well for you. I miss the comaradarie and hope to be back on > a regular schedule now. I did go to the chat room and register so I can > chat with yall in real time. > > I think it was Connie who asked about my holding pattern so here goes. > My PCP is now blowing me off. I am not getting schedule for the biopsy > of the lymph node on my chest wall under the collar bone. My urologist > wrote him a letter about finding the cause of my neurogenic bladder (you > cannot fake that) and he blew that off. I was having problems with my > bladder medication and the PCP gave me something new which made me very > sick. I am back on the old stuff and if I walk around I pee. Woo hoo. > I have called the urologist for something else but he is on vacation all > week. I have been very depressed. I did try to change PCP's but the > one I wanted to go to cannot take any more patients at this time. > > I am just dragging bottom physically and emotionally and spiritually. I > don't know what the answer is going to be for me; I am at the mercy of > the PCP. He thinks it is all in my head. My urologist told me that > doctors say that when they can't figure out what is wrong. I have asked > the PCP to call my therapist and he still has not. I have called his > office twice this week and he still has not done it. My therapist has > treated people that have Somatoform Disorder (your symptoms are all in > your head) and I am not that type of person. He has been a God send; > otherwise I would be ready to off myself. > > I want to go back to work, have my life back, visit family and friends > when I want too.....I don't want this shit. Please, please send me your > good thoughts and prayers. I don't know what I am going to do....I just > can't live like this anymore. I need a doctor who is going to be my > advocate and one I can trust. > > Love to all of you and don't worry, I am not going to hurt myself. Let > me know if there are any new chats coming up during the day - I am a > morning person and more alert at that time. > > Terri G. > > > > > > __________________________________________________ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 13, 2006 Report Share Posted June 13, 2006 Connie, I tried to change PCP's but the only one I would go to locally isn't taking anymore patients right now. So, on that note I am bugging the crap out of my PCP. Either he will deal with me or release me as a patient. I have Fed BC insurance but if I called them, they wouldn't care. They would tell me to change. Well, Joyce Meyer is on so I am gonna go. Thanks for everything. Terri > > Hello Everyone! > > I just wanted you all to know that my niece went home yesterday. Thanks > to all for the prayers and good thoughts and wishes. She will need some > therapy for awhile on an outpatient basis but it looks like her head > injury may completely heal with no lasting affects. > > To all of you that I have missed I hope everything is ok. I know some > people have started infusions, new meds, etc. and I will pray those > things work well for you. I miss the comaradarie and hope to be back on > a regular schedule now. I did go to the chat room and register so I can > chat with yall in real time. > > I think it was Connie who asked about my holding pattern so here goes. > My PCP is now blowing me off. I am not getting schedule for the biopsy > of the lymph node on my chest wall under the collar bone. My urologist > wrote him a letter about finding the cause of my neurogenic bladder (you > cannot fake that) and he blew that off. I was having problems with my > bladder medication and the PCP gave me something new which made me very > sick. I am back on the old stuff and if I walk around I pee. Woo hoo. > I have called the urologist for something else but he is on vacation all > week. I have been very depressed. I did try to change PCP's but the > one I wanted to go to cannot take any more patients at this time. > > I am just dragging bottom physically and emotionally and spiritually. I > don't know what the answer is going to be for me; I am at the mercy of > the PCP. He thinks it is all in my head. My urologist told me that > doctors say that when they can't figure out what is wrong. I have asked > the PCP to call my therapist and he still has not. I have called his > office twice this week and he still has not done it. My therapist has > treated people that have Somatoform Disorder (your symptoms are all in > your head) and I am not that type of person. He has been a God send; > otherwise I would be ready to off myself. > > I want to go back to work, have my life back, visit family and friends > when I want too.....I don't want this shit. Please, please send me your > good thoughts and prayers. I don't know what I am going to do....I just > can't live like this anymore. I need a doctor who is going to be my > advocate and one I can trust. > > Love to all of you and don't worry, I am not going to hurt myself. Let > me know if there are any new chats coming up during the day - I am a > morning person and more alert at that time. > > Terri G. > > > > > > __________________________________________________ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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