Guest guest Posted May 13, 2001 Report Share Posted May 13, 2001 MAry, Just where would this list be without your warmth and wisdom. As usual, you comfort and uplift, and just exactly at the time I need it. The summer solstice, indeed for me it will be the longest day of the year . But then, a new beginning. Meli BMI 47 Dr Hess June 21, 01- Summer solstice. > Dear Meli, > I would love for you to put this date into your calendar for next year. I > would so love to read your post then about how it feels to be nearly a year > post op, to be able to fit in the toilet, wear small clothes, and go up and > down the steps effortlessly. You may have to have a pad for your butt, > however. No guarantee that sitting on those bones on wood benches won't > hurt. > > What a wonderful gift of life you are giving yourself to share with your > loved ones. And on the summer solstice, of course. The longest day of the > year will forever be your annual celebration of life. How amazingly > appropriate. > > Pre op fears are normal. Sort of like " bride's jitters " . > > In support, > in Seattle > DS 1/5/01 295# BMI 47.6 > 3/5/01 230# BMI 37.1 > Dr Welker - OHSU > > Reminders of why > > > > With my date getting closer by the minute I have had the normal > > incidences of terror and wondering if I'm doing the right thing. > > Last night my husband, kids and I went to the races, and although I > > had a great time in general, I was reminded just how hard it is to be > > super-sized in a regular sized world. > > I can no longer zip the zipper in my size 28 jeans, so I have to > > wear shirts that cover my open zipper. Climbing the bleachers was an > > exercise in agony, and using the bathroom, now that's dang near > > impossible! > > The stalls are so compact anyway, and getting in then trying to > > close the door is hard enough. But after you finish your business on > > the toilets that seem to be only mere inches off the floor, you cant > > get the door open without knocking yourself back onto the toilet! > > The bleachers are miserably uncomfortable, probably even for a > > normal person, but even with shifting from butt cheek to butt cheek > > on a regular basis, my legs were cramped and numb. > > I sat there and imagined myself there one year from now. I wish I > > had a crystal ball and could know that everything will go just fine, > > and that I'll still be there for my wonderful family. I believe in my > > that I will, but I have such beautiful children and am married to the > > love of my life, so I still worry. > > Sometimes I feel a little guilty taking this kind of risk, and > > spending so much money on myself (in all this will cost me about > > $8000 total out of pocket). Ironically, it is them that I am mostly > > doing this for. > > Next year I will run up those bleachers, sit comfortably, and > > gracefully glide in and out of those bathroom stalls. > > I just cant remember wanting a year of my life to be over with so > > badly. > > Just a little meloncholy this morning, but still so very grateful > > for this chance. > > Meli > > BMI 47 > > Dr Hess > > June 21, 01 > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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