Re: Been lurking, but have been here...

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You'll get there when you are ready to get there. Just keep checking in, and keep motivated...and when you've wrestled those demons, you'll be ready. I was losing heart for a while, started wondering if this wasn't for me, because I couldn't understand why I couldn't get the motivation going to lose the 10 percent faster. I finally realized it was because I had some more internal work to do...and then I got ready. And now, I'm on the other side.

you'll get there...just don't let go of you. Your dreams. Your goals. Your vision for your life.

Robynnnaughteeheart@... wrote:

Hi all,

It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all of the posts.

I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is for them, who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery, and the ups and downs of all of it.

I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out who may still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the change in their life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their new bodies fit better into their new lives.

I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made other life changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For everyone, my congratulation and prayers!

I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early September, had orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to do and I wanted to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and had to cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and rely only on public transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible when the dates came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks ago, after nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later this month.

I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the posts on this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me tremendously. I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have much to offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling worthless (yada yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before - which makes me know I am not alone.)

I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June 23rd. I have lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all I can do is my best

Thanks all - have a great week.

Daun

[Guest guest]

You'll get there when you are ready to get there. Just keep checking in, and keep motivated...and when you've wrestled those demons, you'll be ready. I was losing heart for a while, started wondering if this wasn't for me, because I couldn't understand why I couldn't get the motivation going to lose the 10 percent faster. I finally realized it was because I had some more internal work to do...and then I got ready. And now, I'm on the other side.

you'll get there...just don't let go of you. Your dreams. Your goals. Your vision for your life.

Robynnnaughteeheart@... wrote:

Hi all,

It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all of the posts.

I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is for them, who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery, and the ups and downs of all of it.

I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out who may still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the change in their life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their new bodies fit better into their new lives.

I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made other life changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For everyone, my congratulation and prayers!

I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early September, had orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to do and I wanted to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and had to cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and rely only on public transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible when the dates came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks ago, after nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later this month.

I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the posts on this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me tremendously. I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have much to offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling worthless (yada yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before - which makes me know I am not alone.)

I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June 23rd. I have lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all I can do is my best

Thanks all - have a great week.

Daun

[Guest guest]

Hi Daun

Like Robynn said dont lose your dreams,keep the faith, the ten percent isnt easy and its harder for others, but the more you can get off now the better................I look back and wish that i had worked harder, as i get closer to my goal i stop and think if i had really put more effort in it, i would be closer to my goal weight of 145, but you know what i just have something like some 50 plus pounds left and that is amazing to me. Just stick with it

ColleenRobynn VanPatten wrote:

You'll get there when you are ready to get there. Just keep checking in, and keep motivated...and when you've wrestled those demons, you'll be ready. I was losing heart for a while, started wondering if this wasn't for me, because I couldn't understand why I couldn't get the motivation going to lose the 10 percent faster. I finally realized it was because I had some more internal work to do...and then I got ready. And now, I'm on the other side.

you'll get there...just don't let go of you. Your dreams. Your goals. Your vision for your life.

Robynnnaughteeheart@... wrote:

Hi all,

It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all of the posts.

I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is for them, who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery, and the ups and downs of all of it.

I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out who may still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the change in their life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their new bodies fit better into their new lives.

I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made other life changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For everyone, my congratulation and prayers!

I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early September, had orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to do and I wanted to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and had to cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and rely only on public transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible when the dates came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks ago, after nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later this month.

I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the posts on this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me tremendously. I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have much to offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling worthless (yada yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before - which makes me know I am not alone.)

I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June 23rd. I have lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all I can do is my best

Thanks all - have a great week.

Daun

Colleen

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Daun, thanks for posting and good luck to you. This

is such a long and diffucult journey.

Laurie

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[Guest guest]

Daun, thanks for posting and good luck to you. This

is such a long and diffucult journey.

Laurie

__________________________________________________

[Guest guest]

Daun, thanks for posting and good luck to you. This

is such a long and diffucult journey.

Laurie

__________________________________________________

[Guest guest]

Welcome. I too was a lurker for a long time and

finally took the risk as you are doing right now. You

are right you are not alone. All the things you posted

about someone here has experienced. Our minds are

powerful and my brain for one has had a hard time with

letting go of the fixing I have done with food. It has

been a year now since I started this process and just

now I am finally feeling secure and strong enough to

know that I have other ways of coping than with food.

It has been a long journey mentally and I know you

will get there too. Keep posting because you said alot

and there are others lurking that will find courage to

post becasue you just did.

Hang in there, you can do this

Cecilia

--- naughteeheart@... wrote:

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have

> been reading all of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided

> that GBS is for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had

> the surgery, and the ups and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or

> 2 years out who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who

> have made the change in their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries

> so that their new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered

> losses, made other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much

> more. For everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in

> early September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what

> I wanted to do and I wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking

> so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three

> times, and had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa

> Clara and rely only on public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not

> possible when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A

> couple of weeks ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the

> appts for later this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't!

> Reading the posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support)

> has helped me tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I

> really don't have much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight

> and feeling worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been

> there before - which makes me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both

> on June 23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10%

> mark. I know all I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun

>

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Welcome. I too was a lurker for a long time and

finally took the risk as you are doing right now. You

are right you are not alone. All the things you posted

about someone here has experienced. Our minds are

powerful and my brain for one has had a hard time with

letting go of the fixing I have done with food. It has

been a year now since I started this process and just

now I am finally feeling secure and strong enough to

know that I have other ways of coping than with food.

It has been a long journey mentally and I know you

will get there too. Keep posting because you said alot

and there are others lurking that will find courage to

post becasue you just did.

Hang in there, you can do this

Cecilia

--- naughteeheart@... wrote:

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have

> been reading all of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided

> that GBS is for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had

> the surgery, and the ups and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or

> 2 years out who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who

> have made the change in their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries

> so that their new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered

> losses, made other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much

> more. For everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in

> early September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what

> I wanted to do and I wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking

> so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three

> times, and had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa

> Clara and rely only on public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not

> possible when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A

> couple of weeks ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the

> appts for later this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't!

> Reading the posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support)

> has helped me tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I

> really don't have much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight

> and feeling worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been

> there before - which makes me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both

> on June 23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10%

> mark. I know all I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun

>

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Welcome. I too was a lurker for a long time and

finally took the risk as you are doing right now. You

are right you are not alone. All the things you posted

about someone here has experienced. Our minds are

powerful and my brain for one has had a hard time with

letting go of the fixing I have done with food. It has

been a year now since I started this process and just

now I am finally feeling secure and strong enough to

know that I have other ways of coping than with food.

It has been a long journey mentally and I know you

will get there too. Keep posting because you said alot

and there are others lurking that will find courage to

post becasue you just did.

Hang in there, you can do this

Cecilia

--- naughteeheart@... wrote:

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have

> been reading all of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided

> that GBS is for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had

> the surgery, and the ups and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or

> 2 years out who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who

> have made the change in their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries

> so that their new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered

> losses, made other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much

> more. For everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in

> early September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what

> I wanted to do and I wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking

> so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three

> times, and had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa

> Clara and rely only on public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not

> possible when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A

> couple of weeks ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the

> appts for later this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't!

> Reading the posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support)

> has helped me tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I

> really don't have much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight

> and feeling worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been

> there before - which makes me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both

> on June 23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10%

> mark. I know all I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun

>

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Daun,

You may post about day to day life also if you feel it helps. I don't feel I

have much to offer this group either right now considering I am pre-op, and I

cannot put my feelings out in words the way these talented people can. But, I am

who I am and they have accepted me this way. I have gotten support just from

issues that have happened to me while starting this journey. Hope you feel more

comfortable and I am glad you have gotten something out of lurking. It's an

awesome place.

KRistie

>

> From: naughteeheart@...

> Date: 2005/06/12 Sun PM 09:56:15 PDT

> To: gastric-bypass-support-kaiser-patients

> Subject: Been lurking, but have been

here...

>

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery, and the ups

and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the change in

their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to do and I

wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and rely only on

public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before - which makes

me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June 23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun

>

>

[Guest guest]

Daun,

You may post about day to day life also if you feel it helps. I don't feel I

have much to offer this group either right now considering I am pre-op, and I

cannot put my feelings out in words the way these talented people can. But, I am

who I am and they have accepted me this way. I have gotten support just from

issues that have happened to me while starting this journey. Hope you feel more

comfortable and I am glad you have gotten something out of lurking. It's an

awesome place.

KRistie

>

> From: naughteeheart@...

> Date: 2005/06/12 Sun PM 09:56:15 PDT

> To: gastric-bypass-support-kaiser-patients

> Subject: Been lurking, but have been

here...

>

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery, and the ups

and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the change in

their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to do and I

wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and rely only on

public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before - which makes

me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June 23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun

>

>

[Guest guest]

Daun,

You may post about day to day life also if you feel it helps. I don't feel I

have much to offer this group either right now considering I am pre-op, and I

cannot put my feelings out in words the way these talented people can. But, I am

who I am and they have accepted me this way. I have gotten support just from

issues that have happened to me while starting this journey. Hope you feel more

comfortable and I am glad you have gotten something out of lurking. It's an

awesome place.

KRistie

>

> From: naughteeheart@...

> Date: 2005/06/12 Sun PM 09:56:15 PDT

> To: gastric-bypass-support-kaiser-patients

> Subject: Been lurking, but have been

here...

>

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery, and the ups

and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the change in

their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to do and I

wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and rely only on

public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before - which makes

me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June 23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun

>

>

[Guest guest]

Welcome Daun

Im glad you've joined us. The wait does seem long but I know this

isnt easy to hear...those of us that had to go thru the 10% and the

wait are way more sucessful long term.

Stick with us, we are a wild and crazy group but we have so much

heart and soul...there is always room for another in our embrace.

Huggles

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all

of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is

for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery,

and the ups and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out

who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the

change in their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their

new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made

other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For

everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early

September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to

do and I wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and

had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and

rely only on public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible

when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks

ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later

this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the

posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me

tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have

much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling

worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before -

which makes me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June

23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all

I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun

[Guest guest]

Welcome Daun

Im glad you've joined us. The wait does seem long but I know this

isnt easy to hear...those of us that had to go thru the 10% and the

wait are way more sucessful long term.

Stick with us, we are a wild and crazy group but we have so much

heart and soul...there is always room for another in our embrace.

Huggles

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all

of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is

for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery,

and the ups and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out

who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the

change in their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their

new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made

other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For

everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early

September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to

do and I wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and

had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and

rely only on public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible

when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks

ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later

this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the

posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me

tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have

much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling

worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before -

which makes me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June

23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all

I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun

[Guest guest]

Daun,

I wish you the best in this journey and please do not hesitate to

talk to us when you need us. We are always here. How do we do

that?

I don't know about you but would think it is pretty close to all of

us and that is the part of this that saddens us all, the loss of a

very good friend. You need to recognize this and mourn the loss

once surgery has happened (if it ever does for you). We all had a

great friend that is no longer there. A friend that would hold us

together when we needed them and comfort us in sadness and

happiness. That friend is food.

I understand your fears and probably most of us, if not all of us,

do on here. We are all the same when it comes to what brought us

here.

Be strong and hold on the what is of value and what is true in your

life. The journey is not easy for any of us and for some we will

take another path.

My greatest prize in all of this isn't the body I now have it is in

the " worth " I have started to believe in. My own worth.

Be strong and blessings in whatever you need to do and whatever

decision you make. You are a brave woman and I commend you either

way.

> Hi all,

>

> It's been awhile since I have posted, but I have been reading all

of the

> posts.

>

> I have read posts about those who have just decided that GBS is

for them,

> who have been approved, and who have recently had the surgery,

and the ups and

> downs of all of it.

>

> I have read about those who have are a month out or 2 years out

who may

> still have the same food issues. And of those who have made the

change in their

> life even more so by choosing additional surgeries so that their

new bodies

> fit better into their new lives.

>

> I have also read about people who have suffered losses, made

other life

> changes, moving onward and upwards. And so much more. For

everyone, my

> congratulation and prayers!

>

> I had my referral on July 2nd, '04, was approved in early

September, had

> orientation on 2/1/05 in SSF. I knew this is what I wanted to

do and I wanted

> to do it on my schedule dammit - why is this taking so long???

>

> I had appts scheduled with Beth and Dr Stiles, three times, and

had to

> cancel three times because of work. I live in Santa Clara and

rely only on public

> transportation, and taking an entire day off was not possible

when the dates

> came. My last one was scheduled for April 1. A couple of weeks

ago, after

> nearly two months, I called SSF to reschedule the appts for later

this

> month.

>

> I thought I was so ready - and I realized I wasn't! Reading the

posts on

> this list (which by the way - is my only support) has helped me

tremendously.

> I haven't posted because I feel I don't feel I really don't have

much to

> offer. Yes - a side effect from being overweight and feeling

worthless (yada

> yada yada - it's been said - some of you have been there before -

which makes me

> know I am not alone.)

>

> I made the appts on May 26th, and my appts are both on June

23rd. I have

> lost 12 pounds, with 28 to go to reach the 10% mark. I know all

I can do is

> my best

>

> Thanks all - have a great week.

>

> Daun