When did you first realize you were fat?

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Dear All,

I posted this earlier today on OSSG - and there has been a

tremendous response! We all have a story, and many of us feel better

sharing them. So I've decided to repost here.

Dear All,

Sometimes we argue, and get hung up on differences, but the real

reason we're all here is because we're all overweight and are looking

at surgical options.

In an effort to foster further understanding, I have a question

to ask: at what point did you realize that you were fat, and it

wasn't just going to go away? Example: For years as the weight crept

up, I made many excuses, " I'm big boned " , " I'm actually just very

muscular " , " I have 'thick skin' " , " It's 'baby-fat' from my

pregnancy " , etc... Yet I never would diet. I realize now that I was

afraid I'd fail, and then I'd have to admit that I was fat, and I was

going to stay that way.

Then one morning I woke up very upset, because during the night

I'd had a dream, and in that dream I was fat. Before, in my dreams I

was still a thinner, energetic me, like in my teens. But that

morning I woke up and knew I'd never escape from being fat. Thus

started the diets, failures, tears, depression. That morning was

probably 15 years ago, but now there is hope on the horizon, and

thanks to you all, I've stopped wishing I'd lose weight, and am doing

something about it. Would anyone else like to share a story?

BMI 60