Guest guest Posted June 16, 2005 Report Share Posted June 16, 2005 Ok I know this is all up to me. I need to get a grip and get back on track. But Im gaining again. Ive gone from bouncing between 150 and 155 to an all time high of 159!!! So thats a 9 pound gain since reaching my lowest of 150. Im scared!!! I see the nutritionalist Monday and I know whats causing it. But I dont know how to stop grazing again. In the morning Im so full of determination but by 3 pm its like I cant stop myself. Im where I dont want to eat at all. I am truly petrified here and freaking out. Im sooooo sooooo scared of going back to what I was!!!! I want to get this 9 pounds back off!!! Im NOT eating today!! Too sad for huggles Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 16, 2005 Report Share Posted June 16, 2005 ...while I've experienced that frequently in the pre-surgical life, I haven't really dealt with it post, of course. I imagine it is somehow even more discouraging afterwards, after having gone through the whole surgical routine...losing weight...feeling like you have been freed forever from the grip of this disease. All I can say is that my skinny friends have to think about this from time to time. They struggle with a few lbs and have a hard time getting back on track. I don't konw what it is that sometimes clicks in me...making me get back on track. I wish I could figure it out. Sometimes I know I need to...and I just struggle within to get there. I have the best of intentions and each morning, I make the resolve...and somehow, I wind up failing resolve by the end of the day. Mindfulness...yes. Forcing yourself to write everything down right BEFORE you eat it (in other words, "OK, I can eat this...but I'm not going to delude myself. I'm going to look up the calories, fat and carbs of this iten, and make a conscious decision about whether I'm ok with it." Add up all of the calories that you've eaten for the day, and consciously realize how many extra calories you are addiing. Think about what that will mean in a week's time. ONce you get through all of that, if you sttill decide to go for it...well, ok. It's a conscious choice. But you've given yourself the chance to get control..the chance to reflect. The chance to evaluate whether you are actually hungry, or just grazing for no apparent reason. The other thing is that when you want to eat something...force yourself to make herbal tea first...mint.. FOrce yourself to wait until it's steeped, sit down...give yourself the time, the serentiy, to quietly drink your tea. Be mindful during that process. Feel the warmth in your mouth, breath in the smell of the mint. Let it calm you down. Reflect a bit on what is EATING you. Are you anxious? Sad? Bored? Afraid of something? Repressing something? Really give yourself permission to think. And then, if after that ritual, you STILL really want the item...make sure that you aren't just actually hungry. Make sure that it is really THAT thing that you want. If it is, see if you can get by on just a small piece of the item. A bite. The other thing to do...go to the computer, or keep a magazine, full of pictures of clothes that you love...things you want to wear...things you know you'll look great in for your daughter's wedding. Fantasize. See yourself in it.. Think about how far you've come...where you'd like to be. Look at your before picture, and remind yourself that you do not want to be that woman again. All of this helps you to be mindful...to remember your goals...to give yourself time to self-nurture in a less destructive way...and in the end...to not feel "deprived"...because you are the one making the decisions for your life, your mouth and your body. Good luck Sweets, Robynn Diane Duenas wrote: Ok I know this is all up to me. I need to get a grip and get back on track. But Im gaining again. Ive gone from bouncing between 150 and 155 to an all time high of 159!!! So thats a 9 pound gain since reaching my lowest of 150. Im scared!!! I see the nutritionalist Monday and I know whats causing it. But I dont know how to stop grazing again. In the morning Im so full of determination but by 3 pm its like I cant stop myself. Im where I dont want to eat at all. I am truly petrified here and freaking out. Im sooooo sooooo scared of going back to what I was!!!! I want to get this 9 pounds back off!!!Im NOT eating today!!Too sad for huggles Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 16, 2005 Report Share Posted June 16, 2005 Go back to journaling! It is a must. > Ok I know this is all up to me. I need to get a grip and get back on > track. But Im gaining again. Ive gone from bouncing between 150 and > 155 to an all time high of 159!!! So thats a 9 pound gain since > reaching my lowest of 150. Im scared!!! I see the nutritionalist > Monday and I know whats causing it. But I dont know how to stop > grazing again. In the morning Im so full of determination but by 3 pm > its like I cant stop myself. Im where I dont want to eat at all. I am > truly petrified here and freaking out. Im sooooo sooooo scared of > going back to what I was!!!! I want to get this 9 pounds back off!!! > > Im NOT eating today!! > > Too sad for huggles Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 16, 2005 Report Share Posted June 16, 2005 Dear I am so sorry your in a quandry and i have never seen you post before that you are too sad for huggles, you need a huge group of huggles...................I dont know what to tell you, or how to help you but it sounds good you have already seen your doctor about it and you are going to go see the nutrionist and your aware of what is going on................I know some people have said they go to counciling to deal with issues simlar to yours, maybe you could do something like that............to help you figure it out, Just know that everyone wants the best for you . Colleen Diane Duenas wrote: Ok I know this is all up to me. I need to get a grip and get back on track. But Im gaining again. Ive gone from bouncing between 150 and 155 to an all time high of 159!!! So thats a 9 pound gain since reaching my lowest of 150. Im scared!!! I see the nutritionalist Monday and I know whats causing it. But I dont know how to stop grazing again. In the morning Im so full of determination but by 3 pm its like I cant stop myself. Im where I dont want to eat at all. I am truly petrified here and freaking out. Im sooooo sooooo scared of going back to what I was!!!! I want to get this 9 pounds back off!!!Im NOT eating today!!Too sad for huggles Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 16, 2005 Report Share Posted June 16, 2005 Boy, that's a tough one . I'm afraid I don't have any advice. Pre-surgery, I had a great little herbal supplement I took called Snack Defense that helped me with snacking. Post surgery, I'm not sure about taking it. Snacking/grazing was always an issue for me too! Try and hang tough and vent away on here and we'll all help you as much as we can. You CAN do it! Some how, some way, you will get through it. I have confidence in you. Big HUGS! Tina > Ok I know this is all up to me. I need to get a grip and get back on > track. But Im gaining again. Ive gone from bouncing between 150 and > 155 to an all time high of 159!!! So thats a 9 pound gain since > reaching my lowest of 150. Im scared!!! I see the nutritionalist > Monday and I know whats causing it. But I dont know how to stop > grazing again. In the morning Im so full of determination but by 3 pm > its like I cant stop myself. Im where I dont want to eat at all. I am > truly petrified here and freaking out. Im sooooo sooooo scared of > going back to what I was!!!! I want to get this 9 pounds back off!!! > > Im NOT eating today!! > > Too sad for huggles Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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