Fwd: Overeating before surgery

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Hello everyone,

I sent this post yesterday, but it never made it for some reason. So, I'm sending it again.

Thanks!!

Pam

Pre-op in MD

Dr. Vanguri

Surgery date July 9, 2001

Hi Everybody,

I've been reading some of your posts about overeating and gaining weight prior to surgery, etc. I just had to write, because I am in the "self-loathing" mode at the moment. I, too, have been eating everything that is NOT nailed down, and have gained 12 pounds. And while I know that this is totally CRAZY, unhealthy, and just plain ridiculous, I am finding that I can't help myself. It's not even (at least not on a conscious level) a matter of me having my "last hurrahs," because logically, I know that that doesn't make sense. Then again, I'm trying to remember how much of my life has actually been logical......... I guess I'm looking to this group to help me understand what is actually going on here. One thing I DO know is that, for my ENTIRE life, whenever I felt that I had "time" to lose weight to get ready for something (for example-- a wedding coming up in the spring, or a class reunion, or a graduation, etc, etc.) I found that not only did I NOT lose weight, I actually gained weight, and then ended up making some excuse not to go to the event or function because I was ashamed of myself. This is SUCH a vicious, unhealthy cycle, and I just want OUT of it!!

You know, I TOTALLY dread the summertime, because I hate the heat, and I refuse to wear shorts!! So, I suffer because of my own shame and stubborness. My children want to be outside playing every single night, and I LONG to be out there with them, but I just can't do what I need and want to do with them at this weight. Now you would think that these reasons ALONE would help me to get out of this "HEE-HAW-LET'S-CHOW-DOWN" mode, but it's not. I'm looking to you guys, as always, for insight. Joe, I read your response to the one post about "abdominal compartment syndrome," and you would think that that would SCARE some sense in to me. Joe, may I ask you once again to please give me the benefit of your wisdom? All replies, of course, are welcome!!!

Thanks!!

Hugs,

Pam

Pre-op in MD

Dr. Vanguri

Surgery date July 9, 2001