Good songs, sad songs

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I Am A Rock

Simon A winter's day-

in a deep and dark December

I am alone-

Gazing from my window to the streets below

On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.

I am a rock, I am an island.

I've built walls,

A fortress deep and mighty

That none may penetrate

I have no need of friendship

friendship causes pain

It's laughter and loving I disdain

I am a rock, I am an island

Don't talk of love

but I've heard the word before

It's sleeping in my memory

I won't disturb the slumber of the feelings that have died

If I never loved I never would have cried

I am a rock, I am an island

I have my books

and my poetry to protect me

I am shielded in my armour

Hiding in my room, safe within my womb,

I touch no one and no one touches me.

I am a rock, I am an island

And a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries.

Ramblin' Rose

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Reply-To: Neurosarcoidosis To: Neurosarcoidosis Subject: RE: Hurtful encounters...Date: Tue, 6 Jun 2006 22:37:18 -0700 (PDT)

Rose, ... friends and family also know us so well as to what would really hurt us. I'll have to look up the words to those songs. I can't recall them right now. The hard part of all this is that she lives downstairs and is also my landlord . I guess that, in a way, keeps me from opening my mouth and saying something I shouldn't...lol. I guess it's just another thing to add to the list of things to grieve over hey? I'm choosing to 'look ahead' and walk with my supportive sarc friends and leave behind that which is in the past. It's abit hard to do when you see 'someone' often though...lol. I guess we all have our 'ex's'. hugs S.Rose wrote:

, have you heard the song "Why?" by Card? The first verse is so often true for all of us. It goes like this:

Why did it have to be a friend who chose to betray the Lord? And why did he use a kiss to show them? That's not what a kiss is for. Only a friend can betray a friend, a stranger has nothing to gain And only a friend gets close enough to ever cause so much pain

The alternative, I guess, is another song, "I am a Rock" by Simon & Garfunkel.

Ramblin' Rose

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Reply-To: Neurosarcoidosis To: "neurosarcoidosis " <neurosarcoidosis >Subject: Hurtful encounters...Date: Tue, 6 Jun 2006 10:43:45 -0700 (PDT)

....speaking of 'encounters'... One of my 'best'? friends and her husband decided I wasn't really so sick...that I just didn't want to do housework anymore. I think she got this from 'her' perspective not mine cuz she never was the best housekeeper. My house was always cleaner than hers...so why not hit me when I'm low and my house has been messy cuz i've been really sick. Another point of hers... that if I was able to paint...I was able to sit in church. I heard this several times. They forget the part about getting dressed after taking a shower(already exhausted) then the drive to and from church and sitting in hard chairs. It also took me nearly five minutes to walk from getting dropped off to get inside and climb down stairs and find a chair. By the time I would get there I wanted to turn around and go home and go to bed. The good thing is that the people at my church are very understanding and compassionate and know that when I do get there it's been an ordeal. (She goes to my old church). I gave her the booklet.....But You Look Good..... and they laughed hardily at several passages in it. yup, they did. I never knew a friend could hurt me so much. They just took it all totally wrong...like I was saying I looked so good... which wasn't the point of it at all. The funny thing is that she has seen me in the ICU and hospital and I've been so sick I had to have a nebulizer and shots for pain. I have had to separate myself from her because of these constant hurtful things she says and now she's using 'that' to say more stuff about me. She is also a very competitive person. Once when I had lost alot of weight she asked me what I weighed and said ...well, I still weigh less than you. Jealous. Toxic. so I have had to keep my distance for my own sanity...which is so sad. I have come to accept weird doctors but the weird 'friends' is a bit harder. If I hadn't had this group over the years I wouldn't have had any friends at all. thanks for being there for me, too. hugs S.

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