Re: Bad week, even worse weekend - long moan - sorry!

[Guest guest]

Beverley, it sounds awful..poor you. I know when we are feeling down

in general how every little thing becomes a mountain.

Big Sympathetic (((((((((((((((HUGGGGGSSSSSSSSS)))))))))))))) from me.

Ruthie

> I have been quiet on here ever since I have got back from holidays

as

> I seem unable to keep up with sheer volume of post and by the time I

> get around to replying we are off on another tack!

> This week we had a committee meeting (for my sins I am Chair of our

> local NCT brabch) and I just felt that it was awful - everything I

> said or did seemed wrong. All in all it generally really p****d me

> of over the whole thing. I could have easily just got up and walked

> out but sheer b****y mindedness over all my previous hard work

> stopped me - I think I was being over sensitive on some matters but

> just the same....

> Then - I have started my implant treatment (remember? - to enforce

> the menopause and help stop me bleeding for 6 months). I thought

> that I was coping with it quite well, the hot flushes are a pain but

> nothing I couldn't handle. Anyway I have gained 12lb in weight in 2

> weeks. It is just awful, none of my clothes fit me (and I mean

none)

> and I feel fat, ugly and a slob. From an emotional point this has

> just made me crumble, it seems to have been the straw that broke the

> camels back. 2 people even asked me this week if I was pregnant

> which was very hurtful under the circumstances but they were not to

> know. In fact I feel pregnant - swollen, tender boobs, swollen

> stomach, constant nausea. If I was, at least I would have something

> to look forward to. I am just feeling so very very low. DH, bless

> him, is trying to be kind but I think that he just really does not

> even begin to understand (at the moment he is playing with DD's in

> the garden to give me 10 mins peace)

> I have been on high dosage progesterone (?sp)for 3 months (which

> seemed to have stopped me bleeding) but last night began to bleed

> again? why? (sorry I realise none of you can answer that - more just

> a cry from me)

> The only hilight of this horrible has been our trip to GOSH with

> Grace (DD1) - she was diagnoiosed with several holes in her heart at

> 10 weeks - on Friday the cardiologist said that she now only has

one,

> 4mm, very insignificant and nothing to worry about - it will

probably

> close itself as have the others. I was overjoyed (and proceeded to

> cry! - damm hormones)

> Anyway, sorry to have rambled on but thank you for giving me an

> environment where I know that I can off-load my feelings and moans

>

> Beverly

> Fat and Fed Up in Herts

[Guest guest]

Beverley, it sounds awful..poor you. I know when we are feeling down

in general how every little thing becomes a mountain.

Big Sympathetic (((((((((((((((HUGGGGGSSSSSSSSS)))))))))))))) from me.

Ruthie

> I have been quiet on here ever since I have got back from holidays

as

> I seem unable to keep up with sheer volume of post and by the time I

> get around to replying we are off on another tack!

> This week we had a committee meeting (for my sins I am Chair of our

> local NCT brabch) and I just felt that it was awful - everything I

> said or did seemed wrong. All in all it generally really p****d me

> of over the whole thing. I could have easily just got up and walked

> out but sheer b****y mindedness over all my previous hard work

> stopped me - I think I was being over sensitive on some matters but

> just the same....

> Then - I have started my implant treatment (remember? - to enforce

> the menopause and help stop me bleeding for 6 months). I thought

> that I was coping with it quite well, the hot flushes are a pain but

> nothing I couldn't handle. Anyway I have gained 12lb in weight in 2

> weeks. It is just awful, none of my clothes fit me (and I mean

none)

> and I feel fat, ugly and a slob. From an emotional point this has

> just made me crumble, it seems to have been the straw that broke the

> camels back. 2 people even asked me this week if I was pregnant

> which was very hurtful under the circumstances but they were not to

> know. In fact I feel pregnant - swollen, tender boobs, swollen

> stomach, constant nausea. If I was, at least I would have something

> to look forward to. I am just feeling so very very low. DH, bless

> him, is trying to be kind but I think that he just really does not

> even begin to understand (at the moment he is playing with DD's in

> the garden to give me 10 mins peace)

> I have been on high dosage progesterone (?sp)for 3 months (which

> seemed to have stopped me bleeding) but last night began to bleed

> again? why? (sorry I realise none of you can answer that - more just

> a cry from me)

> The only hilight of this horrible has been our trip to GOSH with

> Grace (DD1) - she was diagnoiosed with several holes in her heart at

> 10 weeks - on Friday the cardiologist said that she now only has

one,

> 4mm, very insignificant and nothing to worry about - it will

probably

> close itself as have the others. I was overjoyed (and proceeded to

> cry! - damm hormones)

> Anyway, sorry to have rambled on but thank you for giving me an

> environment where I know that I can off-load my feelings and moans

>

> Beverly

> Fat and Fed Up in Herts

[Guest guest]

Beverley, it sounds awful..poor you. I know when we are feeling down

in general how every little thing becomes a mountain.

Big Sympathetic (((((((((((((((HUGGGGGSSSSSSSSS)))))))))))))) from me.

Ruthie

> I have been quiet on here ever since I have got back from holidays

as

> I seem unable to keep up with sheer volume of post and by the time I

> get around to replying we are off on another tack!

> This week we had a committee meeting (for my sins I am Chair of our

> local NCT brabch) and I just felt that it was awful - everything I

> said or did seemed wrong. All in all it generally really p****d me

> of over the whole thing. I could have easily just got up and walked

> out but sheer b****y mindedness over all my previous hard work

> stopped me - I think I was being over sensitive on some matters but

> just the same....

> Then - I have started my implant treatment (remember? - to enforce

> the menopause and help stop me bleeding for 6 months). I thought

> that I was coping with it quite well, the hot flushes are a pain but

> nothing I couldn't handle. Anyway I have gained 12lb in weight in 2

> weeks. It is just awful, none of my clothes fit me (and I mean

none)

> and I feel fat, ugly and a slob. From an emotional point this has

> just made me crumble, it seems to have been the straw that broke the

> camels back. 2 people even asked me this week if I was pregnant

> which was very hurtful under the circumstances but they were not to

> know. In fact I feel pregnant - swollen, tender boobs, swollen

> stomach, constant nausea. If I was, at least I would have something

> to look forward to. I am just feeling so very very low. DH, bless

> him, is trying to be kind but I think that he just really does not

> even begin to understand (at the moment he is playing with DD's in

> the garden to give me 10 mins peace)

> I have been on high dosage progesterone (?sp)for 3 months (which

> seemed to have stopped me bleeding) but last night began to bleed

> again? why? (sorry I realise none of you can answer that - more just

> a cry from me)

> The only hilight of this horrible has been our trip to GOSH with

> Grace (DD1) - she was diagnoiosed with several holes in her heart at

> 10 weeks - on Friday the cardiologist said that she now only has

one,

> 4mm, very insignificant and nothing to worry about - it will

probably

> close itself as have the others. I was overjoyed (and proceeded to

> cry! - damm hormones)

> Anyway, sorry to have rambled on but thank you for giving me an

> environment where I know that I can off-load my feelings and moans

>

> Beverly

> Fat and Fed Up in Herts

[Guest guest]

Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time - sending you lots of

hugs! Pleased to hear the good news about your DD1's heart though.

Francesca, Tunbridge Wells, Kent

Mum to Kezia (3) and Lily (14 months)

[Guest guest]

Oh Beverly it must be awful for you it just makes everything so much

harder when you feel so rough all the time.

hope things start improving for you soon

Sonjia xx

[Guest guest]

((((((Hugs))))))

What a rotten time you are having of it. Hope that it all sorts out sooner

rather than later.

Caroline

Jersey

implant treatment (remember? - to enforce

> the menopause and help stop me bleeding for 6 months). I thought

> that I was coping with it quite well, the hot flushes are a pain but

> nothing I couldn't handle. Anyway I have gained 12lb in weight in 2

> weeks. It is just awful, none of my clothes fit me (and I mean none)

> and I feel fat, ugly and a slob.

> Anyway, sorry to have rambled on but thank you for giving me an

> environment where I know that I can off-load my feelings and moans

>

> Beverly

> Fat and Fed Up in Herts

>

Jersey, British Isles

[Guest guest]

((((((Hugs))))))

What a rotten time you are having of it. Hope that it all sorts out sooner

rather than later.

Caroline

Jersey

implant treatment (remember? - to enforce

> the menopause and help stop me bleeding for 6 months). I thought

> that I was coping with it quite well, the hot flushes are a pain but

> nothing I couldn't handle. Anyway I have gained 12lb in weight in 2

> weeks. It is just awful, none of my clothes fit me (and I mean none)

> and I feel fat, ugly and a slob.

> Anyway, sorry to have rambled on but thank you for giving me an

> environment where I know that I can off-load my feelings and moans

>

> Beverly

> Fat and Fed Up in Herts

>

Jersey, British Isles

[Guest guest]

Poor you - was it just one or two people being horrid at your meeting

or a more general thing? Didn't you get any support from anyone?

You've achieved so much since you've been Chair you should be REALLY

proud. Forget them, you know you have made a difference to the branch

and the charity as a whole with your efforts.

Glad to hear Grace is OK - what a relief.

Don't suppose our trip to Mc's is a good idea, if you're

suffering with your weight. Do they do salads?

((Hugs))

in Stansted

Beverly:

This week we had a committee meeting (for my sins I am Chair of our

local NCT brabch) and I just felt that it was awful - everything I

said or did seemed wrong.

[Guest guest]

Beverley - so sorry you're having such a grim time - try to promise

yourself that it will get better some time and that even if it's bad

now - say in six months time it will have improved. I did that when

going through a traumatic time - that in a year it would be much

better, and it was so nice to get to a year later and suddenly

remember promising myself that my life would move on to find it

had....

Hugs...

Caro

> Anyway, sorry to have rambled on but thank you for giving me an

> environment where I know that I can off-load my feelings and moans

>

> Beverly