Re: Getting Very Anxious...

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, I am so happy that you are getting the colonscopy done. It

will give you the answers that you need. I am Praying hard that all

turns out clean.

Perhaps you are not feeling well due to all the stress with your

daughter. I am so sorry that she is not responding to the latest

chemo. I have added extra prayers for her.

As for your Aunt, I too am Praying that it is not cancer returning.

Yes, CANCER SUCKS!!!!!

Please keep posting and let us know how it is all going. Best

wishes, Prayers and Big Hugs for YOU!!! Ingrid

> Hi all...

>

> Well, Tuesday is my consult for my colonoscopy. I would rather

just

> go in and do it and find out what is going on so that I can quit

> worrying about it. I have been feeling terrible lately and hope to

> find some answers and eventually relief from all of this. It's

been

> almost 2 months sinc emy father passed from colon cancer. I found

> out recently that it wasn't his father (my grandfather) that had

> colon cancer...(he had a different type of cancer and more

recently)

> it was my grandmother. And apprently she was very young. My mom

> and dad were high school sweethearts and by the time they were

> sophmores my grandmother had had it and was done with treatment and

> everything my mom said nobody really ever talked about it so she

> doesn't really know much. I plan on asking my aunt. Anyway...My

> grandmother was 35 or younger at dx, my aunt 31 and my father 35

> (stage IV at dx). Needless to say that at 27 (28 in April) I'm

> really shaking in my boots. Especially with all the symptoms I've

> been ignoring. DUMB,DUMB,DUMB! And you know what my logic

> was...well, If it was really something serious I'd be really,

really

> sick by now. DUH!

>

> All of this comes on the tail of bad MRI news for my daughter on

> Thursday. Not as bad as it could have/has been in the past. But

> not good either. Her SEVENTH chemotherapy drug has officialy

failed

> and her brain tumor is still growing. For a year and a half we've

> been battling this thing. Blasted damn. It kills me to watch my

> baby go through this. Each treatment decision and informed consent

> is an agonizing event. I HATE cancer and I'm just about ready to

> kick it's butt. Grrr...

>

> My aunt isn't feeling well again and is going in for another

> colonoscopy shortly. I am PRAYING that it is not a reccurence.

She

> is very strong, and such a fighter...but, I don't know if she could

> handle it emotionaly. She was my father's primary caretaker up

> until the day he died. They were always close...she's had a very

> hard time and is battling some pretty serious depresion. Poor

> thing.

>

> Imagine a world without CANCER...wouldn't that be grand?!?

>

> Jusst wanted you to know that I've been here checking in on you and

> remind you that my prayers are always with you as you battle on,

> wither yourself or with a loved one.

>

> With Love and HOPE

>